Gelong
Dre-may
An introduction to
meditation
Tampere 16.4.
Kotipehkun yhteistalo, oral translation Tuula Saarikoski. Teachings
at Turku and
Helsinki. (Edited.)
Anne-Maj
Nordström: Rokpa Finland welcomes you to this occasion.
Gelong Dre-may:
Good afternoon, first of all, thank you for having invited me to
Finland. It is a beautiful country, all I had known of Finland
before was from books and from what I had seen on the television, so
it is a new experience, it gave a completely different perspective
travelling from Helsinki to Tampere by train, clean air, snow,
trees, ice, space, space, space, lots of space… nice.
Thank you. I don't know if everybody here is involved in Buddhism,
but as I am a Buddhist monk then it is usual at the outset of, well,
anything really, to start off with a good wish, a good intention, a
good motivation.
It is the
motivation, good in the beginning, good in the middle and good in
the end. So to start off, we will say a brief four line motivation
prayer, I don't know what's going to be in the middle, but anyway,
at the end any merit that we have accrued, that we have gained, we
will dedicate it for the benefit of all sentient beings. The four
lines are a wish for compassion and understanding and that wherever
it has arisen may it not diminish but increase more and
more.
Chang-chub
sem ni
rin-po-che
ma che-pa
nam che jur chik
che-pa
njam-pa mepa
dang
gong ne
gong-du phel-var sho.
So first we
will sit quietly for a while and think on this motivation and why we
are here................................
These days
Buddhism is becoming acceptable, a much more acceptable notion, it
is popular, nearly everybody knows of and respects His Holiness The
Dalai Lama who is being like an ambassador for world peace, for
human kindness, and for the cause of Tibet and has helped introduced
Buddhism to the western world as something that can be a
living experience.
But I think
that it's not just the Buddhism label, it seems more to be that the
lineage of human kindness, of just being a human being, of humanity
that is looking at itself. People got lost seeking happiness in the
material aspect of life, this seeking happiness outside of
ourselves, now more and more people are realising that we have the
answer within us, that this potential for happiness, this inner
stability, that this peace is in us, but they don't know how to tap
into it, we don’t know how to find it, we don’t where to look. There
are many alternatives offered, but most people it seems want we
something that makes some sense, just some down to earth, common
sense. We are looking for some honesty, some truth in our
lives. That is what meditation is about.
Actually,
that's what Buddhism is about, it's just common sense. We need
something, some way that we can do something ourselves. There is
nothing out there which can transform our problems on a lasting
basis, nothing out there that will give us some lasting peace or a
lasting happiness, it is inside us, it is with ourselves that we
have to work.
But before we
go any further I would very much like to thank the people who have
kindly offered and prepared this building for today’s talk. They are
mainly students of the Nyingmapa School, primarily my Teachers are
of the Kagyu School, but I have received teachings from
Nyingmapa and Gelugpa Lamas as well, so I feel quite at home
here. A good connection - thank you for your hospitality and warm
welcome. (Nyingma, Gelugpa, Kagyu are three of the traditions in
Tibet, there are two others, Sakyapa and Bon.)
So what is
meditation, maybe it’s not such a bad idea to know why to do it,
what it’s about and how do we do it? We shall cover very briefly
these topics before explaining the different techniques of shinay,
shamatha meditation. This talk is not about trying to convert anyone
to Buddhism, or to do a Buddhist thing okay!!! It
is about our mind, it is about how to live on an ever, seemingly
increasingly chaotic planet in at sane, humane manner.
It is this mind
of ours that experiences the happy or unhappy states, whether one is
a Buddhist, Christian, Jewish, Moslem, Hindu ,
etc,. It is the mind that experiences different states, so that is
what we will try to talk about. But I am a monk and my teachers are
from Tibet and are Buddhist so the methods that we will discuss
today are from that tradition, that part of the
world.
As most of us
are beginners then we will start at the beginning... so why to
meditate, what is our mind, where it is, what is meditation?
Meditating is not about sitting in rainbows or flying, maybe
beautiful, maybe save some airfares, but meditation is about
something else. It's about living in a sane way in daily life, about
being able to cope with all the different situations we are
presented with, about having a clear mind, about being able to cope
with everyday problems in a sane, sensible and peaceful manner. It’s
about getting to the cause of our problems, this attachment to ’I’;
the ego, and our ignorance about the way thing’s really are
concerning it.
(I feel a
little embarrassed, and also honoured, because the lady who has very
kindly accepted to do the translating here today used to be
translator for Kalu Rinpoche, so she is very knowledgeable, we are
very fortunate to have her here today.)
Anyway, the
mind and our confusion, our attachment to this ego, to ‘I’, that is
what causes us problems. We have thought patterns, in Tibetan the
term for these patterns are called ba-chak. A nice word, it
means habitual pattern. In our daily life we get involved with our
patterns, it’s like a film in our mind, like a movie, we make up our
movie, we write the story, we direct it, we act in it and then get
supporting actors, we get other people involved in the plot as well.
It’s a habit and it is very difficult to change.
[Some new
people enter the room.]
Hello, we are
talking about mind and that most of the problems of the world today
are coming from the way we see things and that the cause is the
attachment to ‘I’, to ego and we are discussing why to
meditate and how to do it. In our daily life we make decisions, like
today, we decided to come here, but it wasn’t that we got up put our
clothes on and came and then our mind followed, it was our
mind that decided which clothes we would wear and our mind that
decided how we came. It is so simple, but, in a way, maybe it’s too
simple; our ego, it can’t accept that it can be so simple; otherwise
‘I’ would know it, wouldn’t
I?
There is a
quote by the Buddha: "Don't do any harm, do only that which is good
and tame your mind," because it is the mind that decides, what we
do, if we do any harm or not.
Question: What
is the size of the mind?
Gelong Dremay:
I think my mind must be a bit small compared to yours.
Q:
That's not true.
GD: There
doesn’t seem to be a size that we can put on it, if we think about
the Eiffel tower, it's enormous yet we can see it in our mind. And
we can think about a fly, which is quite small. We can put these
things in the mind, so there is no limit to it. How about a little
story, but it is a true one.
My retreat
master is Lama Yeshe Rinpoche and his retreat master was a very
famous, very venerated Lama from Tibet known as Kalu Rinpoche. Lama
Yeshe was, for many years in retreat in America, but then he came to
stay in retreat at Samye Ling in Scotland and I had the fortunate
possibility to attend him, to take care of his needs.
One day I took
him his breakfast and he wasn’t his usual happy self, he said: "I
have a problem with my practice, a big obstacle.’ Now usually Lama
Yeshe is a joyful person, he laughs a lot, he is a person with a lot
of humour, but that day he was not his usual self, really not too
happy. Then later on, when I took him his lunch it was quite
different, he was all smiles and happy, his normal self and I
thought, "how nice, that's better."
Lama Yeshe said
he had been praying to Kalu Rinpoche. Now at this time Lama Yeshe
was in a solitary retreat situation at Samye Ling in Scotland and
Kalu Rinpoche was in his monastery at Sonada in
India. Lama Yeshe said "Kalu Rinpoche came
and talked to me for a long time, we talked about my practice and
now I know what's the matter, so everything is okay, it’s fine."
Just before
Kalu Rinpoche died he said: "A lot of my students, they think that
now I'm an old man and am maybe a bit past it, but they don’t
understand. They don’t understand the mind and they don't
understand the way things are at all.” So when we talk about the
size of our mind, then maybe there is no limit. There is
no difference between being her or there or wherever the true
masters want to be, it doesn't make any difference to them.
Sometimes maybe these masters will show something to a student, to
help them, or to make them have an understanding, not to get lot's
of student's, more problem's then - eh! And definitely not for
prestige or money or anything like that, but solely to help their
students progress in their practice, in their meditation, in their
understanding.
Today, it is me
that has to do talking but maybe next life it will be you who is
sitting here and me that is listening, the lady in front may be
sitting here next time we are reborn so then the position’s will be
reversed, so I don't want to give any false information, because
then in a future life I will get false information won’t I, that's
karma, isn’t it.
So meditation -
I ask you to think about a big yellow banana, now think a clock, now
a strawberry. So where did the banana go, and clock and the
strawberry? And where did they come from? It’s our mind, so mind has
different facets.
Now try to
imagine this room as a big glass aquarium, full of clear water. The
sunlight shines through clouds into the aquarium, the clouds move
and the sunlight moves across, through the water, from one side of
the aquarium to the other side, but the water, this doesn't moves,
does it? The sunlight moves but the water through which the sunlight
is passing that doesn't move at all, does it? It's just the sunlight
that is moving. This sunlight is like our thoughts
which we experience in our daily waking hours and in our dreams when
we sleep, these thought patterns which we hook onto in our daily
life.
The water is
like the essence of our mind, it's always there, the natural pure
state. Buddhanature, it is there in all sentient beings. In Tibetan
this is called the Dharmakaya, the pure essence of our mind, this
vastness, this potential to be a Kalu Rinpoche maybe. We all have
mind, you, me, every sentient being has mind, men, women, black,
brown, yellow, white, fat, thin, animals, we all have mind; there is
no difference between us concerning this. This pure Buddhanature,
this awareness is there all the time, it was never not
there.
But back to the
aquarium, the still water, even if we are resting in the stillness,
aware of the stillness and looking at the sunrays, there is still
something that is looking at the sunshine, looking at the object, so
there still is a duality. Our objective, or the fruit of our
practice, is to be beyond this duality, this being aware of the
stillness, to be beyond even that. It is just to be, to re-discover
what is the there all the time but is hidden by these habitual
patterns that we have, this habit of getting involved in this
thinking, the confusion. Maybe it’s a bit like the mind is basically
still, clear water but we stir the mud at the bottom and the water
becomes cloudy, cloudy with our thoughts, our movies, so when we
stop stirring the water it will settle and become clear again, and
we can rest, we can just be this awareness.
But first we
have to see the thoughts, this sunlight in the aquarium, and then
move onto seeing the essence of the thoughts, of the sunlight in the
aquarium, the stillness, the water in the tank. But to do this takes
some time, we have to practise and we have to learn how to let go,
to relax, more, and more... It is said when we reach the state of
this awareness, this essence, not with just our intellectual
knowing, the intellectual understanding but with our heart, when we
taste it, then it’s a different knowing.
It may be like
knowing intellectually how to make a cup of tea, then someone asks,
“but what does it taste like?” we can answer: “Oh! hot, and if you
add sugar then it is sweet,” etc. but we haven’t experienced the
true taste, so we don’t know it at that level, but when we drink the
tea then we know it in a different way, it's a different knowing,
and we can’t explain it, people have to taste it, to taste that
knowing for themselves, it’s impossible to explain that
knowing.
So when we have
tasted this experience, this emptiness, then we won't have to
fabricate kindness or compassion. It is said, that when we taste it,
experience it, then this knowing will never leave us, we will
know that other people don’t know this simple thing, this pure mind,
they don't know, otherwise, they wouldn't act the way they do,
causing more problems and suffering for themselves and
others.
So when we
understand that, then maybe it's a bit of a tricky one, because the
sadness is there to see the others being involved in this ignorance,
in the suffering, which is a totally unnecessary part of life. They
are involved in all the senseless activities and if they understood
this simple thing, then no more suffering. But at the same time
there is a most natural compassion, knowing that the friend-enemy
thing is a confusion also, so there is an equanimity....not a
feeling of compassion for this one, but not for that one, it is the
non-separateness of this understanding of emptiness and compassion
which can give our minds a more open, bigger mind, not our usual
small mind. This is the goal of our meditation.
When we see the
Buddha, Dorje Chang, he is the colour blue, this blue represents the
Dharmakaya, this naturally pure state of our mind and he is sitting
with his arms crossed, holding a bell in his left hand and a dorje
in his right hand. The dorje and bell are symbolising skilful means
(compassion) and wisdom (the understanding of emptiness)
respectively and the crossed arms symbolise the inseparability of
these two. In the Nyingma tradition this is represented by a Buddha
with a consort, symbolising the same thing. The bell is the wisdom
aspect, so sorry guys but this is the female aspect, it is the
understanding of emptiness, the wisdom aspect. The dorje represents
skilful means, that is the compassion aspect and this is the male
side.
As a
representation of the inseparability of these two, the wisdom and
compassion then in the Nyingma tradition they have the Buddha with a
consort which you may have seen on thangkas or
statues. We monks and nuns have to visualise the
bell and dorje! (laughter) So what it means, this symbolism, the
wisdom, the understanding of emptiness, the pure nature of our
minds, when we realise it, experience it, when we taste it, when we
know it, then it is not a blankness and it is inseparable from
compassion, it can never be separate, it's impossible to
separate these two aspects...
If we have the
idea that maybe we have understood, experienced this emptiness and
yet we don’t know this compassion, then maybe there is still some
more to do, maybe we are not quite there yet!!! Apparently it
is like that! So we have to sit, to meditate, to make the time to
practise if we really want to know.
In Tibet there
was a famous yogi, his name was Milarepa, maybe we can call him a
Saint, he was, in his lifetime and still is, very famous and revered
in Tibet. He is famous because he achieved liberation, enlightenment
in one lifetime. He had a disciple whose name was Gampopa. Milarepa
gave all the different practices and meditation techniques to
Gampopa, then when Gampopa was leaving, going away, Milarepa called
him back and said “There is one teaching that I didn’t give to you,
it is very secret, the deepest”… then he turned around, pulled
up his robe and showed his bottom to Gampopa. Milarepa’s backside
had hard skin, sores and scars. “That's it” said Milarepa, "You have
to sit and meditate to realise these teachings, to actualise them,
to know." So we can understand the teachings intellectually, but the
only way to understand, to really know them is to meditate. We have
to sit and tame our minds in order to be mindful in our daily lives,
so as not to be a cause of more suffering for ourselves and
others.
A big fault
that many people make is that they practise for half an hour or
whatever and then think "That's finished, now I can get up and enjoy
myself." But if we do that then we lose the benefit of our practise,
we lose the awareness.
What we have to
do is to try to carry the awareness, our experience, into our daily
life; this aspect of the meditation is called 'post meditation'. So,
sitting meditation and post meditation. But this post meditation is
not easy, in fact it is quite difficult to do, to carry any
awareness we have gained into our daily lives even for a few
minutes, so we have to be patient and not expect immediate
results.
I was
fortunate, really very lucky, I had the opportunity to participate
in lengthy retreats under the guidance of great meditation masters.
In retreat one has had the opportunity to practise with little
distractions. I had no real idea what it would be like, I thought
maybe I would have hard time in retreat. Well, the first year
apparently can be a bit difficult for everyone, but as westerners we
had no idea of what to expect because it’s a completely new
tradition in the western world. Actually the first year was quite
difficult, but it was such a privileged position, which as time
passes, I appreciate more and more.
Towards the end
of the retreat Akong Rinpoche visited us and said that we would each
separately have some time with him and that he would ask us some
questions. When my turn came, Rinpoche asked what I had learnt from
the retreat. I said that I had learnt that I was a beginner, an
absolute total beginner... Rinpoche answered “Always keep
beginner’s mind...and if you think of it, if we have beginner's mind
then we are open, always ready to learn, maybe not have such big
egos and maybe we can learn to be more a bit humble, but that’s a
difficult one, eh?!
A couple of
years ago I went to stay at the Buddhist centre in Brussels and
there I meet people with families, jobs, there are students, all
sort of situations, all sorts of problems, even people with the
problem of not having a job. There is so much hassle just being in a
city and trying to live the worldly life but the people I meet still
find time, still make the effort to arrange it, so that they can
practise, meditate, fifteen minutes, half an hour, one hour every
day, I really take my hat off to them because it's not easy to do
that.
What I'm trying
to say is, that to practise we have to make an effort, we have to
have some sort of discipline in our lives because there is
always something to do, somewhere to go and it’s always so
very necessary, just so important !!!.
In the West we
want everything not even now, but before now, we want results, we
want signs and usually we are not very kind to ourselves, we are too
demanding and if we make mistakes, ego doesn’t like it, ego doesn't
like not to be perfect, not to be the best and so we are sometimes
not kind to ourselves, and not kind to others
either.
A sad situation I found very strong in Europe is
guilt; we did something a long time ago and still feel guilty, it is
quite, I think a sick situation, not healthy. There is a Tibetan
Master his name is His Eminence
Tai Situpa, he was giving a
course at Samye Ling, Monastery in Scotland and he was asked about
this subject, guilt, what he felt about it. He said that he
understood the concept of guilt, but for him, he thought it was
perhaps not such a healthy situation to have to live with, like a
big load to carry. When he was young and did something wrong, his
parents or teacher would say: "Don't do that it's stealing," for
example. "What is stealing?" "When you take something which is not
given to you, which is not yours."... "Oh! I see, I
didn’t know, then I really regret it, I won’t ever do that
again.".... Finished!!!
If it comes up
again then one remembers, and one says to oneself: "No, no, don't do
that." It's like that. Of course we will make mistakes, we are
humans aren't we, so we must learn, we must try to be aware of being
here now, of being aware of our actions, of what we say, of what we
do and of what we think, otherwise we are still in our movie from
the past or the future and that can affect us very
deeply.
Something
happened to us in the past when we were young, many people had bad
experiences, then we say "Oh, I do this because of that" so we are
not only hanging onto an unhappy situation, we are living it now,
someone gave us a hard time and so whatever occurs, then we can
refer it to that happening in the past movie and in a way it’s
a bit like an excuse as well, we can blame every
mistake, every bad mood, experience on this past movie. The
experience in the past may not have been very pleasant, but it is a
knowable thing, this memory, this movie from the past, it is
familiar, so maybe it is easier to indulge this comfy knowable even
though it is not such a nice knowable instead of getting into
something that is unknown, that can be scary.
It is not so
easy just to be here now, well it is, but the habitual thoughts and
the mind’s activity won’t let us just be, it’s difficult just to be
here now. Now is very fast, isn't it, there, its gone already ! We
have to learn to relax, to be in the present and to learn to relax
actually takes some sort of effort, strange isn’t it, but we have to
make this effort in order to learn, to be able to relax.
(Break)
******
There was a
question during the break about meditation in our daily life.
Actions which are seemingly meditative, like chopping wood. I think
if you are on a certain level, then you are never separate from that
awareness. I will tell another story in order to explain that we
don't understand the vastness of mind, the extent to which our
awareness can be.
Rinpoche is a
term and it means "precious one". One Rinpoche, his name is Gyaltsab
Rinpoche, he is the 12th incarnation. One of the, maybe
we can say function of a bodhisattva is, that they come back to
shows us, just like an example, so some Rinpoches do that, they keep
coming back to help us, to show us the way out of confusion, our
suffering.
That's what
they are here for, to show us the way out of confusion, they are not
here to become famous, or to make money. Actually maybe some of them
do that, you have to be careful, even with someone who calls
himself Rinpoche, anyone can say that they are a Rinpoche, so
we should check things out, not be so naive and even if they are a
Rinpoche then they have a human body so they can get involved in
ego. Just because someone is a Tibetan or a Rinpoche you don't have
to believe them, you should check them out, and if you have a
connection and they really are a good teacher, then they will check
you out as well, and it may be many years before you are have a real
connection, when your trust is there.
Anyway,
Gyaltsab Rinpoche was teaching in Samye Ling Monastery which is in
Scotland. At that time I wasn't a monk but a hippie veteran and
living at Samye Ling and was working in the vegetable garden. I
usually was late for the teachings because we had to arrange things
for the visitors and so by the time I arrived, the shrine room was
full and I usually ended up sitting in the corridor. This particular
day I was once again sitting in the corridor. I hadn't been staying
at Samye Ling that long and I didn't know anything about dharma (the
teachings of Buddha), but the way Gyaltsap Rinpoche explained
things, it seemed so clear, so very easy, just common sense, of
course that's the way it is! But he made it so easy, it was so
clear I couldn't believe what I was
hearing.
Then it was
time for him to leave the shrine-room. Everybody stood up to show
respect and as he left the shrine room and walked into the corridor
I thought "What can I offer, how can I say my thank yous?" So where
he would be walking, along the corridor, I imagined peacock feathers
and flowers on the floor as a path with beautiful girls, offering
goddesses offering flowers and incense, songs etc., with Bob Marley
playing nice music, (that's what I was into at that time in space )
...honey suckle and jasmine smells... as he walked by me he turned
his head and faced towards me and said... "Thank you!"...of course I
lost this visualisation
immediately...
So next time
you are in front of Gyaltsap Rinpoche, be careful of what you are
thinking (laughter). But these teachers will only do it to show us
something to open our small minds, or to try to make us be aware of
our thoughts, to help us to see through the confusion that we are
usually caught up in, involved with in our daily lives.
So if you can
find that chopping wood helps you to do that, great! Whatever works,
we all have different capacities and who knows what we did in past
life. It’s said that we can't go back, that if we reached a certain
stage in meditation in a previous life, then that is where we will
be next life, maybe it's not straight away but maybe we practise and
then something clicks and we come back to where we were in a
previous life.
Meditation is
not about a religion, not about Christianity or Buddhism or any of
the other religions, it is just about human kindness, this human
lineage of kindness, compassion, and just being aware, it is simple.
Personally I think that if Buddhism is classed as a religion then it
is the religion of this human kindness, compassion that this label
refers to.
There is a
tradition that is used in Tibet, it is called vajrayana. The vajra
or dorje is indestructible and yana is the way, the path. The
practise of vajrayana uses methods of visualisation to tame our
mind. Maybe we could be visualising ourselves to be someone, a
Saint, a Deity. In Buddhism we could maybe visualise ourselves as
Guru Rinpoche or Tara, Chenrezig or Buddha himself. The reason for
visualisation is, that this ego is so tricky, so sneaky, that
we have to be a little more trickier - so what we do is to put
something in our mind space. We are thinking! But we are
doing it in a controlled way, thinking what we want to think of.
I don't know if
you have seen Buddhist rituals, pujas they are called, with
recitations and music. There are offerings made, mentally, verbally,
physically. For the verbal part one says offering mantras like....
Om benza argham ah hung,... om benza padham ah hung, but one
could think, what are they doing, these silly people? Moving their
hands around saying strange things. What it is going on is that one
is using the body, the hands to make mudras, the speech to recite,
to chant or say mantras and the mind is engaged in visualisations.
Whilst saying the offering prayer,...om benza argham ah hung, we are
visualising ourselves to be a Buddha or a Deity and we are emanating
offering goddesses.
We are offering
all these offering goddesses who are offering water to the Buddhas
whom we are also visualising, we offer water for drinking, water for
washing and then there are goddesses offering flowers. etc., We are
trying to tame this wild mind, this wild horse. So in vajrayana we
use visualisations and when making the offerings we are using body,
speech and mind together, one pointedly, body speech and mind
working together, so maybe it’s not so silly. We see people in the
shrine room prostrating and wonder why they are doing this? What
they are doing, paying homage to is the Buddha who is symbolic of
this pure nature, this potential, which is there, inherently in all
sentient beings, this compassionate, naturally pure state of
mind.
When
prostrating we put the hands in a certain position, it is called a
mudra and we visualise that there is a jewel held between the palms
of the hands, the little fingers are close together, lengthwise,
this blocks of samsara, the middle fingers are slightly open giving
a gap at the finger tips, this symbolises being open to
enlightenment, the thumbs are slightly apart from other fingers, not
close to the index fingers but a little back from them, the two
thumbs gently touching each other, this space between index fingers
and the thumbs symbolises being open to the dharma teachings,
the teachings of Buddha.
When we place
our hands in this mudra to our forehead, (some people
put their hands on top of the head, some place them at the forehead
).....we are purifying all our bodily actions and offering all our
body actions for the benefit of all sentient beings, when we place
our hands at the throat then we are purifying our speech and
offering all of our speech be of benefit for all sentient beings,
when we place the hands at our heart, that's where our mind aspect
is represented, we are purifying all our thoughts and offering
all our thoughts to of be of benefit for all sentient
beings.
When we go down
to the ground to prostrate, we think that our body covers the whole
of the universe.... when we come up, we think that we have liberated
all the beings in the universe from the realms of suffering, from
the oceans of suffering. So the practice of prostrations is a
practice to train in bodhicitta, to train and purify the mind and to
lessen pride, to be more humble. It is a very deep and
meaningful practice.
It is very
beautiful, because each time we go up and down, for me it symbolises
each separate moment in our life, each separate lifetime, then we
can think... "Well, maybe this lifetime I didn't liberate anyone!
But I will try again next lifetime,” and the next, and the next , so
it is like an endless homage to humanity itself. If one can't do it
physically, this going down to the floor, then you can use your
hands and say the prayers and do the visualisations and bow your
head. A friend in Samye Ling did it this way, one time she used to
climb and had a bad fall and injured her spine so that now she has
to sit in a wheelchair but she finished her ngöndro section of
prostrations using this method and completed one hundred and eleven
hundred thousand prostrations, a lot of courage!
All these
methods may seem simple, but it's the body, speech and mind that we
are training. Of the three then it is the mind which is the most
important. Are there any more questions?
Question: What
gives this mudra the power to purify?
Gelong Dre-may:
Maybe the mudra itself, maybe the pure wish, the motivation, maybe
the blessing of having being performed endless time by pure beings,
for pure reasons, maybe your faith, maybe you would be better, well
for sure you would be better asking Akong Rinpoche or Lama Yeshe
Rinpoche about this. Do you know the quote, “faith
can move mountains “? If we can have faith it does work, but this is
difficult because we get ‘ripped off’ in so many ways that we lose
the confidence to trust our own feelings.
Another story,
well this is a long time to talk, five hours listening to me blab
on, so maybe not so boring with a little story here and there. Two
friends of mine live in Dover in England, one of them sometimes she
has a little bit pink hair and she wears glasses, you know like some
MMMMmm middle-aged ladies do. She is a practising Christian, many
people tell me she is a (what’s the word ? ) ...a
medium, she prays to Virgin Mary and people say that she sees the
Virgin Mary and that she talks with her.
The Virgin Mary
apparently told her she had to go to Rumania and help the gypsy
people, so she takes medical supplies, clothes etc,. to the
Rumanian gypsies, this started a few years ago. When it first
started she asked "How can I, I don't have anything?" But she had
faith and trust in the Virgin Mary. People started to turn up at her
house offering hospital supplies and clothes and money etc. Then a
man came and said, "I hear you need a lorry driver, I am
driving a big empty lorry to Rumania."
This is how
things happen. I had lived in Samye Ling for many years working
voluntarily, so when I was in retreat I had no money, one day a bill
for ninety pounds arrived, the second letter was from this lady
friend from Dover and inside was a cheque for one hundred pounds
with the message: "Maybe you will need
this." She is a Christian
and I am a Buddhist, so I think there isn’t any difference between
all these different religions, maybe different names, but the
essence of them all is compassion, this human
kindness.
It is
sectarianism which causes the problems. If we have faith, if we
believe, if one has right motivation, if we are kind, if one has
this love for others, this caring for others, then that is it, if
you are kind, then you are a Buddhist, but it is sometimes difficult
to be kind when someone is giving you a hard time, when we are
getting our buttons pushed, then maybe not so easy......!!!
Question: Yes,
what about then?
GD: Yes, then
it is different isn’t it!!!!
Q: Yes.
GD Well why do we react? Maybe because
we have a button that can get pushed, so in a way these button
pushers are our best friends, our teachers aren't, they? If our
buttons get pushed, then the button pushers are showing us we have
buttons that can be pushed. It’s our ego that got hurt, and we react
in this habitual manner, it's because of our habitual
patterns... Ba-chaks, they are so strong, from many
lifetimes. We react in a certain way, we don't know why, but it's
like that.
One thing that
we all have to learn is to laugh to ourselves. If we can't laugh to
ourselves then we do have a problem, ego doesn’t like to be laughed
at, but if you are like me, you have to laugh a lot, I am endlessly
it seems making mistakes, so I have to laugh to myself all the time,
of course ego doesn't like it! Actually it can be a big step this
learning how to laugh at ourselves.
In the modern
world we have this achievement thing and we don't want to make
mistakes, but that's one of the ways we learn, isn't it! We have to
overcome this thought pattern, this habit, when we can see it and
have done some work on lessening the ego, then maybe we won't act in
such a confused way, a way that creates even more confusion when
someone pushes our button!!! Not easy eh!!! But no one said it was
easy. Are there more questions?
Question: We
began talking about bananas and clocks, things that we see, which
are our thoughts, and they were compared to sun and us being the
water. Then we started to talk about an essential vajrayana
teaching, that when we have objects of thoughts we replace them with
a Chenrezig visualization for example, we give some other toys for
the mind to play with. While these toys have a value which takes us
more near the buddhanature, they take us towards the inner being, do
other toys like a banana, have a value? Can a banana have a
buddhanature?
GD: Well,
personally I have never seen a banana Buddha, but its all pure,
isn't it? Once the Dalai Lama was asked about being what was needed
for the benefit of beings and he answered that if people needed a
bridge to cross a river then he would be a bridge, so if a banana
was needed to help you, then maybe the banana is a bodhisattva
offering himself as your food, who knows what is real. But if we are
visualising, then we are using our mind which is pure in essence,
the object in daily life, the banana is a fruit, but I am not sure
whether a banana has awareness.
With worldly
objects then possibility is there, that we can have attachments
etc., so maybe a little bit impure. That is why we use
pure objects to look at or to visualise. But the essence of mind,
the essence of our visualisation, that is pure, it’s the mind isn’t
it, so whatever we use then, the essence will be pure, isn’t
it? Okay! Anyway, we can carry on with visualisation, maybe we
are visualising ourselves as a Buddha, looking at the head and then
moving down the body, the robes, the legs, the lotus and then
we are off, in a movie, we are thinking: "What was going on in the
office today? I should not have said that" etc., then we
remember.... "Oh, I should not be thinking this I should be
visualising…"
You know that
one! (Laughter)... yes, we all know that one, so then we just return
to the visualisation, no problem! That's fine, that’s okay, we
recognised, we saw that we were in a movie, on a vacation, then we
come back. Then, ten seconds later: "Cup of coffee…" let it go and
come back to the visualisation. But sometimes we think: "I really
need coffee." Next thing is we get up from our cushion (or chair)
and we are in the kitchen making a coffee, and before we know it we
are drinking the coffee, but then we really got involved
in the movie didn’t we? (More laughter.) Yes...we all know that one
as well, eh! Yes, it's like that.
So that’s what
we are practising for, in order to recognize this confusion we are
usually involved with, to not be in it! We started, that's
important. Once we start to see it, to see the pattern, after a
while, depends on the individual of course, we get the thoughts
coming, well, they seem to be coming in an endless stream, like an
express train that has no end, we can't stop
it.
In Tibet it is
said this experience is like a waterfall, they didn't have express
trains in Tibet centuries ago. When this happens you may
think that you are becoming crazy, maybe you will think "this
meditation isn’t working at all, in fact it is getting worse, it's
making me think more". It’s not that way at all, it’s just that we
are seeing, most probably for the first time, we are seeing the
confusion that we are usually involved in, but don’t know, it's like
that! We are seeing the movies, the turmoil we are usually embroiled
in and when this experience occurs then all we can do is to have
lots, lots of patience and keep on with the practise and slowly,
slowly, because we are not making the movies any more, or becoming
less involved in them maybe it will slow down this waterfall, this
express train.
We are not
giving the movies more actors etc., so the stream of thoughts lose
their strength and slowly it is getting weaker, gaps appear in the
stream. But at this stage one really needs patience. It will slow
down, the waterfall becomes like a river, not so fast. The river
flows into a beautiful calm lake, nice and calm, peaceful, then a
thought can appear, it comes like a wave, you can watch it, that's
the first thing we are talking about, watching the banana or the
sunlight, so then we see this movement, this movie thought, this
pattern that we are usually we are involved in. We learn to see it,
the confusion, so that we are not involved in it, or less
anyway.
But the habit
is there, if we think of a croissant, "Oh yes, I need a croissant!"
We are in it again, involved in it, it's like that, another thought,
an other involvement, it's like the croissant.... Translator: “ The what?..”
. GD: Croissant, a
pastry, something you eat... Translator: ”Oh, that's what I get
involved with, food thoughts, and croissants, I really like
croissants.“ GD: But if you are sitting and you see it in your mind
and say, "Let it go." That's it, otherwise next thing is we are
walking into the baker shop buying a croissant.... really got
involved, again.
So shinay is
very useful in our daily life and very useful for when we die,
because then we really need to have a calm mind. But actually it’s
no big deal, we are born, so we will die isn’t it, voila! But when
we die, if we don't a have a peaceful mind, if we are involved with
all the thoughts, fear and attachment, frightening visions etc.,
then there will be much confusion, I think it must be a bit fearful
anyway, but it can also be a time for liberation, that’s what the
texts say.
If we have a
calm mind we can watch the dying process and as Tai Situpa says "We
don't want to miss it, do we, because it only happens once in a
lifetime" (laughter). So we are not only practising just for now,
but we are also preparing for our death and for future lives. If we
can understand that what we are watching all day long is just a
vision in our mind, a movie, then when we die maybe this clarity,
this peaceful mind, this awareness will help us at that
time.
Meditation is
really simple, but like all simple things it’s not so easy.
Sometimes it is difficult to be simple! If we can just sit and look
at our mind, that's fine, but most of us can't, we don't know where
our mind is, is it in our foot, arm nose, is it a colour, is it blue
red, yellow, is it square, round? So we have to find it, this
wild horse, our mind before we can tame it, to do this we have to
calm the mind, so we will go through some exercises to do
this.
There are
practices of using our breathing or looking at an object outside our
body or looking at something inside our body, or visualising a
something to put our attention on. What we need is something to
concentrate on and one of the things we do each day is we are
breathing. It's there all the time, so we can learn how to
concentrate on our breathing using our breathing process as a
support for our meditation.
We are
westerners, we were not brought up to sit in the cross-legged
position, but if you can sit on a cushion with your legs crossed
that’s fine. Most of us were brought up to sit on chairs, so if you
can’t sit on a cushion then use a chair, no
problem.
But it is
important to have straight back. The hands can be held in two ways,
one is to put the hands on the knees [palms downwards], arms can be
straightened a little, maybe not too bent at the elbows and the
shoulders kept back a little, it can help also to keep the back
straight. The other method is to place the left hand down in the lap
and the right hand is placed top of it [palms upwards], thumbs just
gently touching, the thumbs forming an inverted triangle, the hands
not held up or out but resting below the navel gently close to the
body, if the hands are held out in front of you this can tend to
make the shoulders hunch round. If you are in a public place and you
don't want others to know you are practising then you can just sit
as normal, no need to be strange and then no one will
know.
In our daily
life we are continually getting confronted with situations and if we
react, then we are involved. We might answer
angrily to an insult. There is a little trick that may be of use to
you, how not to get involved in these everyday situations. When a
confrontation happens, just become aware of the breath, the going in
and out of the breath at the nostrils. If we can just focus on this,
watch it, to concentrate on this breath as it goes in and out of the
nostrils just three times, it may be of help in these awkward
situations. It can give us some space so that we are not so involved
in the argument, the confrontation movie, then maybe we see the
situation in a different way.
We are there
looking at this person freaking out and not getting involved in it,
otherwise that person is making a movie and we are his supporting
act, but if we can just have some space from this involvement then
maybe we can be able to see the other persons confusion. If they are
angry then they aren’t really in a happy state of mind, they are
suffering, so why be a cause of more suffering for them! So if we
don’t react to the insults or shouting or whatever, then maybe we
will see the suffering that this person is in, and if we do not act
in the, well, the sometimes, self-preservation of ego manner, maybe
we will be able to act a little bit more kindly, a little bit more
humanely to this unhappy, suffering person.
So !!!.........
hands on the knees, or in your lap. Then just become aware of the
breath at the nostrils going in and out, eyes are gently looking
down, some people like to close their eyes but then one has to be
careful, because it is easy fall asleep, it's okay to close
eyes when we begin to learn but later maybe better to
keep them open. The mouth should be a little open, relaxed
naturally, head, well like it is being pulled up a little by the
hair, little difficult for some people, (laughter ) ..yes, me
also... then the head is bent slightly at the neck, looking down a
bit, this help to keep the spine straight, okay.
Just become
aware of the sensation of the breath going in and out in the
nostrils, nothing else, if you hear noise outside or someone moves
and you get distracted it's okay just come back to watching the
breath the awareness of the breath, let’s try.
[Meditation.]
Little sessions
like that, it's good to do lots of short sessions because it's
tiring trying to hold our wild horse. If we are beginners and we
have set aside half on hour or whatever time to practise then break
this time up into shorter periods one minute two, three, four, five
ten, etc,. Slowly increasing the time, then one hour, two hours, no
problem!
We will go
through a couple of more methods of using the breath, some people
like different methods. But give each one a fair trial, a few weeks
or months because this mental activity is not always the same, one
day mind is busy, next day peaceful, so we have to give each method
a fair trial. Maybe you will find that one method suits you more
than the others, maybe you like all of them, we have to find out for
ourselves.
The next method
is an extension of the first one. This is just looking at the
sensation of the breath. But now when we breathe in, we follow the
breath going in the chest to the heart area and when it goes out,
when it is expelled, it is said traditionally that the breath goes
out to four finger widths in front of the nostrils. So it's a cycle:
in to the heart area and out to approximately four finger widths in
front of the nostrils. We are going to watch this movement with our
mind.
This method is
called ‘riding the breath’; we are breathing normally with this
exercise. Sometimes when we start to watch our breath, we can get a
little panic, but it’s just because usually we don’t focus on the
breathing process, we don't watch our breath. If this panic
occurs, it's okay, just relax and slowly start again, just relax and
breath normally.
Q: Do we
breathe through the nose?
GD: Well if you
can, usually these practises are explained that way, of breathing
through the nose, but if you have a difficulty to breathe through
the nose, then it is better to breath through your mouth, I don’t
want you to faint! But if you can, then it’s through the
nose.
So just place
your awareness to the breath going in and out at the nostrils and
relax and in your own time start the cycle of breathing, in to the
heart area and out to a little distance in front of our nostrils,
just following this cycle. We will give it a try. [Meditation.]
The next method
is just an extension of the previous one, but with a little
difference. When the breath goes in and out, that cycle is counted
as one, so in and out one, then in and out again two, etc. This time
we are following our breath in and out and we are counting. The mind
has different levels of thoughts, it's a bit like an onion with
different layers, when we count we will have thoughts, we will see
them but we can’t stop them, don’t even try to stop them, that’s not
the object of the meditation, just let them go, and as long as you
don’t lose the count then that’s fine. The thoughts that we are
noticing in this practice are the outer layer of the onion and if
the thoughts come: "Did I park the car right?" or whatever, then if
that happens and you don't lose the count then that's okay, but if
you lose the count: "What number was it, three or four?" then go
back to number one.
Some days we
can do many sets of completing sevens or can get to twenty-one or
one hundred and some days we can’t get past three or four. It’s just
that some days we have a calm mind and other days we have busy mind,
that’s all. It's good to start with cycles of seven, we do sevens,
then twenty-ones, fifties, hundreds. So if the thoughts come, but
you don't lose your count, that's okay.
[Meditation.]
When I started
to practise this meditation, Akong Rinpoche said: “If you can sit
and count to five hundred it’s okay." So of course I had to try, I
got to four hundred and ninety something and then thought... “Great!
I’m almost there... what number was I at?” I lost it, I totally lost
it! Of course then I had to go back to number one and start all over
again…laughter!!!
If possible
it’s good to give yourself a little space that is private, a place
you can use just for your practice. One thing that
invariably happens, you are meditating and an itch comes - maybe on
the nose, or some other place, difficult not to have a scratch but
don’t, just don’t react, don’t scratch it, otherwise, you will never
stop chasing these itches and if you are sitting with other people
then it will disturb them as well.
Today we
are in a peaceful place …but there is so much going on in the world,
aggression, famine, wars. When we hear about these situations
it gets inside us like pollution. Body and mind are connected, so
the tension we experience in our mind spreads to the body. In our
body we have channels and sub-channels called nadis and these can
become clogged up, rather like a busy roundabout in a traffic
jam.
When we begin
to sit and meditate we start to relax, we start to let go of this
tension we have collected in our physical body is released and the
body begins to move, and sometimes this can cause little reactions,
but don't worry. Maybe when sitting the body can shake or jump a
little, but it’s okay, it's just the body letting go of this
pollution, it's learning to relax and open, so don't worry, it can
be a little frightening if you don't know, but it’s okay, it’s just
the mind and body learning to relax together again, sort of a
healing maybe.
Question: My
legs hurt and become numb. Should I do something about it or just
let it be?
GD: You have to
find a balance. Your muscles and tendons are being a little
stretched. What you can do is that you look at the pain, where
is it? Usually if there is a tension and we become aware of it
then we tighten up in our mind, so it's a double reaction and it
makes things worse. If we look, where is it? Is it in the muscle, is
it in the sinews etc., if we really look we get down to atoms,
and in between the atoms there is space so where is the pain? We
rest in this space, we have to learn to relax. Don’t hurt yourself,
have some tolerance. Otherwise we will never sit still, we will
never stop moving. We have to be sensible; we don’t want to end up
in a wheelchair! If you are sitting 5 - 10 minutes, that won't hurt
you too much.
The next method
is using colours, it's the same arrangement of breathing as before,
in to the heart area and out to four fingers widths in front of the
nose, some people like colours, they can concentrate more on
colours. This time when we breathe in, think the breath is the
colour white. When the breath is held naturally for a short time the
colour becomes red and when the breath goes out it becomes the
colour blue. [Meditation.]
From a
westerner's point of view it's quite difficult sometimes to get the
concepts from the Tibetan texts into western ideas, so if I have
confused you, my apologies. But there are also different confusions,
when people are trying to sort something out, trying to get through
the undergrowth in a forest, and that seems to be a good confusion,
because out of that confusion comes some understanding, some wisdom,
so that's a positive confusion, not stupid confusion. Are there more
questions?
Question: How
long one should do these practices, two years?
GD: Did I say
two years? I'm not saying there is a two year contract, these
practises could be for all your life.
These practices
are methods of shinay, they are the basis of our practice. If we
have good shinay, then that is a good foundation, like a foundation
for a house. So slowly, slowly because this mind is like a crazy
wild horse, so we must tame it gently, we have to be very patient
and gentle... Be kind to yourself, not too
demanding.
Question: Can
you meditate while you are sleeping, if you are aware that you are
asleep?
GD: There are
practices called dream yoga. If you go to sleep in your bed and you
want to do that, then you lay on your right side, and you block your
right nostril and in your heart, do you have a teacher. Then you can
think of a brilliant white light or Buddha or Jesus or whatever is
your pure idea, pure thought. You think this light fills your body
and shines out from you, the bedroom becomes full of this pure
light, very peaceful, very gentle, then it extends from your room
throughout the whole world, the universe and this light dispels all
the suffering in the world, so the whole world becomes a pure place,
a pure realm, then the light comes back to this place in your heart
from where it spread out in the first place.
When you are
going to sleep you say, repeating many times "Tonight I really want
to dream and I really want to know my dreams to be dreams", over and
over again. The dreams we are involved in when we sleep are of
the same nature as the ones we are involved in when we are awake, so
if we can recognise them then it will be very useful, compassion
will grow because we will understand that beings are suffering
because of taking these mind movies to be real.
Question:
Sometimes I fall asleep and then become conscious and then I wake
up. Then I have to sit up and meditate.
GD: That's
great. When you start to practice like that you don't need so much
sleep.
You have to
persist. Lama Yeshe told me a nice story one day, when I took him
breakfast, he said: "In my dream last night I was flying over a sea,
I knew it was a dream and that I was flying and there was a great
mountain in front, so I just flew through the mountain and the next
and then over the sea again, I really got it, it was great, and then
this big monster appeared out of the sea and I lost it, I woke up."
He was laughing, laughing... we laughed and laughed... just couldn’t
stop, I had a stomach ache from laughing.
It's a good
practice to do, also in the daily life to recognise this is
illusion, this confusion, this dream to be a dream. So that seems to
be it.
Thank you very
much for inviting me, it has been really enjoyable, your company and
this place. You are very fortunate you have Ani Sherab to seek
advice from. If you have found anything useful today then please
take it with you, but if you disagree with anything, then no
problem, just leave it here. So now we will dedicate whatever
understanding or merit we have gained, we will share it and dedicate
it towards the release of suffering and for the happiness of all
sentient beings. So it was good in the beginning, then something in
the middle and now, good at the end.
Sönam deji tam-che zig-pa nyi
tob-ne nye-pei dra nam pam che ne
tse ga na chi palab drupa ji
sipe cho-le dro va drol-var sho.
Due to this
good karma, may I achieve Omniscience,
Defeat the
harmful enemies within me,
And free
beings from the sea of existence
That is
churned by the waves of birth, ageing, sickness and
death.
Gelong Dre-may
Buddhist
meditation
17.4.2004 Turku, Sisäisten taitojen studio, oral
translation Soili Takkala.
(Edited)
Good afternoon, thank you for your invitation and warm
welcome. Today I think we have to talk on the subject of meditation.
So what is meditation, why do we need to practise it and how do we
do it? Meditation is about our mind, that which
decides what we do, what we say. We will talk about
training this wild mind, this cause of all the happiness and the
cause of all the unhappiness.
Today, we put our clothes on and made our way to this
house, but it was our mind that decided what clothes we put on and
our mind that decided how we came. We have body, speech and mind,
but it is our mind which is the most important.
My teachers are from Tibet and in Tibet they have wild
horses so they liken this mind of ours to a wild horse: first we
have to find it, then catch it and then try to tame it. The method of
making the mind peace, of calming the mind is called Shinay,
shi translates as peace, nay as to abide, so, to be
peacefully here, to abide peacefully, in sanskrit it is called
shamahta. We are going to talk about the method of shinay that
involves using our breath.
In our daily life we get involved in thoughts, movies in
our mind ..."I would like a banana.“ The next thing is that we go to
the shop, we buy some banana’s and eat one. This happens all the
time in our daily life, we get involved with our partners our
neighbours etc. Someone pushes our buttons and we react and we are
involved in the other person's movie but at the same time we have
our own movie going on, it's like we are caught up in an endless
cycle of this pattern and these habits, which have been going on for
lifetimes, They are getting stronger and stronger because we write
more movie scripts and the more we get involved the more the pattern
gets stronger, and stronger.
When we are practising meditation, sitting still,
watching these thoughts, trying not to get involved, trying to be
aware, trying to let them go, then of course, sometimes we again get
caught up in the movie. We may be watching our breath and then, for
some minutes, five, ten, twenty! or whatever can pass, we are on a
vacation, caught up in our movie. Usually it involves some event in
the past or in the future, then we wake up, we notice we have lost
our concentration, we become aware that we are in a movie, that's
okay, that's fine, we have seen it, we have
noticed.
It’s a bit like: "Ooops! I should be concentrating on my
breath!" It's okay, because we noticed, but it happens time and time
again... and again.... so not to worry. When we start, we have to be
a little strict, we have to have some discipline, when we sit we
have to make an effort, its strange because we have to make an
effort in order to learn how to relax. If we do sports only once a
month, lifting weights maybe, you know, body building then you end
up like me, but if you do it every day, then you get big muscles, so
if we practise once a week or once a month then we are not going to
get very far, we have to do it on a regular
basis.
When we start, we have to be gentle with ourselves as
well, a bit strict but not to demanding, not too hard on ourselves,
we have do lots of short periods. It is better to have short periods
with awareness than deciding to do one hour and getting tired and
bored, it’s boring enough anyway... just sitting and watching our
breath or whatever. Would you like a "boring story"?
When I first went to live at Samye Ling we were very
fortunate, sometimes in the evening Akong Rinpoche did a puja (a
puja is a buddhist ritual with chanting, visualisations, mantras
etc.). I had no idea what was going on so usually I just sat at the
back of the shrine room and soaked up the atmosphere, this time
thought I got really bored!!! Between the shrine and the
front row of people there was a space, maybe two metres, so to amuse
myself I imagined the fanfare that you hear at circuses and then I
projected myself to the space in front of the shrine. I did
somersaults and bowed and imagined everyone applauding, I was really
enjoying myself doing all these different acrobatics when I sort of
felt something, someone, getting my attention, so I turned my head
and saw that Akong Rinpoche was looking at me, shaking his head very
slowly, gently from side to side indicating no! So be careful what
you think of, when you are around Akong Rinpoche!!!
So now, back to the meditation. These short periods,
first maybe we do half a minute, then one minute then two minutes,
five minutes, half an hour, one hour etc. Even start off doing ten
seconds if that is all you can hold your concentration for, then
twenty seconds, one minute, it is better to have short time lapse
with concentration than one hour being in a movie. So however
long we decide to sit, then we break this time up into shorter
periods.
One of the big mistakes is when we think: “Now I'm going
to do some meditation.” We sit the time we have decided on and then
we think: "Now I can get up and enjoy myself," but if we do that,
then we have lost any qualities we may have gained, we have lost the
benefit of our practice. Because the next time we sit we have to
re-start again and again and again, over and over, every time it’s
the same, we sit for one hour and the only calmness is perhaps five
minutes at the end, it has taken all that time, almost the whole
hour to have calm mind.
So when we are meditating on our cushion that's one
meditation, but the other meditation is when we get up from our
cushion, or chair and try to carry any awareness that we have
cultivated during the sitting part into our daily life, into our
daily activities. This getting up part, this trying to
keep any awareness we may have cultivated is called post-meditation.
We try to carry what we have gained through all our hardships, our
sore bottoms, sore backs and sore leg’s etc,. into our daily
life, but the thing is not to get disheartened if this doesn't
happen straight away because the habits are very strong and it can
take a long time to change them, so we must have great patience and
diligence, make an effort.
Post meditation
doesn't mean that when we get up from our session we are into some
weird state, staring, not talking, or whatever, we just carry on our
daily life in a normal way but trying to be more aware, trying to
have more awareness in our daily activities, not to be strange, just
be normal. Some people say I did this and that, I had this very deep
insight, a vision etc., trying to impress, but it is said the sign
of a good practitioner is when that person becomes more humble, more
gentle, more kind, having a good heart and being honest.
Honest with themselves and honest with others.
When we start
to meditate then lots of emotions will come to the surface, that’s
what the practise is for, it’s not give us more problems but to
bring the problems, this inner turmoil to the surface, to be able
see this confusion that we experience but don’t know where it comes
from or how to handle it, so then it can be like a big, big mirror,
it can be a bit yucky!!! We see that we get upset or angry, we get
our buttons pushed, but it's always the other persons fault isn’t
it, a neighbour playing music too late, someone not washing their
dirty plates or cup, someone always pushing our buttons... "Why are
you always doing that, always driving me mad." But if we get angry,
then we have the problem don’t we. Maybe the other person does have
a problem but if we react to them pushing our buttons then we have
buttons that can be pushed, so it’s our problem, it's our problem if
we get angry, it's not the other persons fault, its our fault, no
ones else’s. We always blame the other person, but we have the
problem. It's up to us if we are happy or not, in fact our worst
enemy is our best friend! They show us that we have these buttons
that can get pushed, and we learn patience, aren't they kind, these
button pushers.
Earlier we
talked about bodhicitta. A person who practises bodhicitta is a
bodhisattva, fortunately there are bodhisattvas who are like living
Buddhas, they keep coming back lifetime after lifetime, they
reincarnate to show us the way out of our confusion. It can’t be
easy to knowingly to be born again and again, it means that one has
to go through being in somebody's womb for nine months, then to be
born, it must painful to come out of the womb, then once we are out
someone welcomes us with a slap on the backside.
It’s said, the
feeling, when we come out from the womb and are wrapped in a towel
and rubbed, that this experience is terribly painful, like being
rubbed with sandpaper. On top of that one has to bear
the suffering of growing, getting teeth, having sicknesses, dying
etc. But they are willing to go all of this, not just to make lots
of money or for fame but to try to show us the way out of our
confusion, our suffering.
But most of us
are beginners, so we start by looking for this wild mind, this wild
horse which we have to train.
How do we put
all these words into practice? Many of you know anyway, but I will
start as if we were all beginners, okay! We have body, speech and
mind. Today we got up, put on our clothes and came here, but it was
our mind which decided what clothes we would wear and our mind which
decided how we came, the body didn't come here and the mind
followed, it is the mind which is the most important. So we start by
training the mind, usually meditation is practised sitting crossed
legged, but for western people then we weren't brought up to sit
cross-legged, we are not brought up that way, sometimes we manage to
do it for a while but it can be painful, so don't force it, take it
easy, so if you need to sit on a chair, no problem but if you want
to try to sit cross legged then maybe it's good to sit on a cushion,
or two, or three and as you get used to it, when the muscles and
tendons have stretched a bit and we have learnt to relax then maybe
we won’t need three cushions but two etc,.
We need to
learn how to relax, to let go of this tension that occurs in our
daily lives, especially in the cities, this stress factor which is
permeating society these days. As a little exercise to stretch you
can press the knees gently downwards the floor, but gently, be
gentle, don’t hurt yourself. Look at this cat as an example how
relaxed we can be. (The cat lying on Dre-mays lap.)
There are two
large obstacles to meditation, one is a too active mind, the other
is when we are slothful, when we have a heavy mind and then its easy
to start to nod off, to fall asleep. We sit down, relax and try to
let everything go, breath out, close our eyes and ...fall
asleep. When we want to relax we have to let our mind relax
and body relax at the same time but keep the mind aware,
alert, it's like playing the guitar, if the
strings are too loose, plonk!!! If too tight, ping!!! We have
to find the middle way.
Physically it
helps to keep the back straight, try to have a straight spine, the
spine is the central column of the body, the part where all the
energy goes up and down. I don’t like talking about chakras,
because these days there are lots of silly talk about this subject
and people can get the wrong ideas, ”Oh, I got my chakras opened!”
But in our body we have three main channels, they go from just below
our navel up to the crown of our head and at certain places in our
body we have chakras, at the navel, heart, throat head, etc., and
smaller branches called nadis.
When we are
quite young, maybe even as early as three years old, these nadis,
the smaller channels start to die from the extremities, the finger
and toes etc. but due to anger, pollution, smoke etc. these
channels get blocked faster and so they die even quicker.
In our daily
life we are confronted with tense situations and we get upset, so
when we start to relax, when we start to meditate, because we are
letting go, not holding onto this tension, we relax mentally and the
body will start to relax, the tension in our muscles loosens and the
toxins in these areas start to be released.
What can happen at this time is that some people, not everyone but
some may have a little reaction. The body can involuntarily give a
few shakes or little jumps. From the relaxing in our mind then the
bodily tensions also are relaxing and the toxins are starting to be
eliminated, the nadis are opening, maybe it's a bit like a
sort of rejuvenation, so don’t worry, it’s okay. Just think of
it as a purification, a healing process, it’s fine, don’t
worry.
This modern
world, this society is sometimes such a violent place, we have the
news on television, radio, always bad news, we hear about riots and
corruption and even though we may not recognise it, it does affect
us. So when we are sitting peacefully all this subconscious
pollution that we have collected we have to let
go.
We can do
meditation in different ways, we can do it like having a sauna, it's
nice I know, I had sauna first time last night, apparently in
Finland nearly everyone has sauna, I know why now. But we have
to keep going there again and again, so anyway, we can practise
meditation like that, every evening, again and again, just to relax.
The other way
is to get a bit deeper. So, it's good to sit with straight back.
Concerning the hands, one way is to place to rest them in the lap
just below the navel, close to and gently resting against the body,
the left hand is underneath and the right hand on top, palms up, the
thumbs are raised, like an inverted ' v ' gently touching each
other, the hands are not kept too because otherwise we will bend our
shoulders and slouch.
Also, you can
put the hands on the knees, some people like this, it can be helpful
if we are a bit tired, it can help to keep the body straight, to
keep the body erect, it can also help to straighten the shoulders,
to keep the shoulders from becoming hunched forward, so two ways for
the hands. The head, well it is like you are being held up by your
hair, pulled up a little but at the same time the head is slightly,
very slightly bent forwards as this helps to keep the spine
straight. The eyes, they are gently resting in a half closed
position and looking approximately one, or one and a half meters in
front of you at the ground level and the mouth is gently resting, a
little bit open, just resting naturally, not too tight, not
too loose , not blab ,blab , just natural.
Usually people
breathe through their nose but some people have a difficulty with
this so if you have to breathe through your mouth then that is the
way it is, it’s okay. If you like, as a beginner, then it’s okay
maybe to close the eyes, some people like to do this if there are
distractions, but maybe you will get involved with the thoughts,
slip into a movie more easier than if they were open, it is also
easier to fall asleep with the eyes closed, so if you can, then try
to keep the eyes naturally resting, sort of half closed, just
resting.
So this
afternoon, we can maybe work through four or five methods of shinay.
The first one is just to look at the mind. If one can do it that is
good, but it is not so easy, as we may not know where to look, where
our mind is, so then we can end up just sitting in a blank state!
Here in the
city people have lots of activity to cope with, it is very busy and
difficult to be in one place, body and mind well together, this is
not easy anywhere but even more so in a busy environment. Usually we
are involved in a movie, some event in the past or in the future, we
all have this problem. There is a little exercise that may help
before starting the breathing exercises to try to bring the body and
mind to be at the same place at the same time.
We start by
focussing our attention on top of the head, and then slowly we move
the attention down the body, past the eyes, the nose, the chin and
neck. Any tension that we come across, maybe in the shoulders or in
the neck, look at this tightness and let it go, then work down the
arms to the hands and fingers, if there is any tension in the hands,
let it go, then down your spine and chest, waist and hips, continue
towards the buttocks, thighs, legs, down to the feet. If this
process of going down makes you feel sleepy, work your way up the
body again. This can bring the energy up, but if you feel okay, just
stop at the feet and carry on with the breathing
exercises.
So now we focus
on, put our awareness to the movement of the breath going in and out
through nostrils, that’s all nothing else, just be aware of that.
Just breathe normally and put the awareness to the movement of air
going in and out of the nostrils, look at the sensations of this
movement of air. If thoughts come let them go, don't try to stop
them, that’s not the object of the practise and we can't stop them
anyway, just let them come, let them go, of course, sometimes we
will get caught up in the thought pattern, in the movie, but when
the we notice it, then come back to watching the breath at the
nostrils, it’s okay, no problem, we have noticed, that’s good.
[Meditation.]
With each of
these methods then give each one a fair trial, maybe one month or
more because some days we have a busy mind and some days the mind is
quiet, and we could think on the busy day: “Oh! This is rubbish,
today it was useless”, but each time we sit it is good, every
session is good, it is just the different activities of the mind,
that’s all.
The next
exercise is an extension of previous one, this just being aware of
the breath at the nostrils, but this time when we breath in we watch
the breath as it goes in to the chest down to the level of the heart
and when out it goes out, then traditionally it is said to be four
finger widths in front of the nose.
These methods
seem very simple, but they were good enough for Buddha, so, maybe
they are good enough for us as well!!! So we watch the air going in
through the nostrils the chest, to the level of the heart and when
it goes out, it goes to four finger widths in front of our nose,
it’s a cycle. This method is known as riding the breath.
It can happen,
when we start to take notice of our breath, that we can have a
little feeling of panic, if this does happen, just relax, take it
easy, it’s okay, it’s just that usually we don't take notice
of our breath, that’s all it is.
Also, when we
are sitting there is something that is not good not do, because if
you start, it is difficult to stop and it will disturb others if we
are sitting with other people. You may get an itch, maybe an itchy
nose, it’s drives us crazy, it won't stop and then we have to
scratch, then it's the left ear, then somewhere else and we end up
scratching all over but, if we don't give in first time it will
pass, this urge to do something, of course this urge to scratch will
become overwhelming, but if we just sit and carry on with the
practice, whatever it is, then it will pass. It's a bit like the
banana thought or the going to the kitchen for a coffee, little
things like this are training the mind not to follow the usual
habits. It's just a habit and sometimes you just have to say
no!!!
Question: What
does it mean four finger widths in front of your nose?
GD: If we hold
the hand flat, extended in front of the nostrils, that’s it, we
imagine that's where the breath goes out to and then it comes back
into our nose, we are just breathing normally, not especially long
breaths. But don’t get to fanatic about having the exact
measurement, it’s just an approximation to give us a
guideline.
So, no
expectations, no hope, no fear, just do it, if we keep looking for
something, some sign, whatever, then this is an obstacle, other
people will notice the change in you if you are practising, usually
we don’t notice the change, it’s other people who notice. So, now we
do this exercise, this riding the breath.
[Meditation.]
The next method
is an extension of the previous one, it’s the same procedure, the
same cycle, but this time we count. When we breath in and out,
this cycle is counted as one, so in and out is one, then in
and out again two etc. It's good to start off with counting cycles
of sevens, then twenty-ones, then maybe we can manage one hundred or
five hundred, but better not to be too ambitious, we are not trying
to achieve a number, it's just a number to help the concentration
that's all.
When counting
maybe you will notice the thought process, the patterns of thinking,
that’s fine, we can’t stop thoughts, but as long as we don’t lose
the count then that’s okay. If we lose the count, then back to
number one. So we can do a few cycles of seven, later we can try to
count to twenty-one or hundred.
This
mind, it’s sort of like an onion, it has many, many layers, so
now we will see maybe the outer layer, we will try this practise of
counting, sevens to start with [Meditation.]
Did anybody
lose their count?
Answer: Many
times.
The last
exercise that we will go through today is where we are using the
same procedure as the previous method, this cycle of in and out, but
this time we don’t count. We see the in breath as the colour white
and when the in breath has reached the heart area and we naturally
hold the breath for a moment, then the white changes to
red, we naturally hold it for a little while, it’s not that we
intentionally make an effort to hold it, it’s just the natural
breathing process.
When we expel,
when the breath goes out, then the red turns to the colour blue. So
in white, hold red, out blue. [Meditation.]
These methods
are just to give us good shinay, a peaceful mind, these are not
insight meditation methods which are another matter. Earlier we
talked about the example of the aquarium, it was just an example to
try to show that this mind of ours, this basic pure mind, is always
there, the thoughts can’t pollute this pure essence of mind, the
thoughts appear, but the pure mind essence is always there. It is
like the water, always there, not moving, like pure pristine
awareness, so this is like our pure nature.
When we
practise shinay, we are working to get a peaceful situation in our
mind so as not to have the usual involvement with our chaotic
thought patterns, then when we get a peaceful mind we can see the
thoughts, like sun moving through the water, so we see the thoughts
aren't separate from the mind.
The next step
is when we become aware that our mind is also like the water through
which the sunshine moves, the water doesn't move. But we need good
shinay before we can move onto this step, in Tibetan the looking at
the true nature of our thoughts is called Lhaktong. Lha is an
honorific term and tong means to see, so to see in a superior
way, in a superior manner, in Sanskrit this it is called vipashyana,
but it may take some time before we can practise this
exercise.
So really
meditation is quite easy, but the difficulty is to do it on a
regular basis. When we begin, it is better to start off doing short
periods. If you are allowing fifteen or thirty minutes for your
practice session then break this period into shorter sessions, one
minute, two minutes , then build it up, five, ten, twenty, thirty,
one hour, etc.
We have to
learn also to be gentle with ourselves, not to put such demands on
ourselves; we need to be more patient with ourselves. Sometimes when
I'm meditating and lean to one side or the other, I then try to put
this right, try to have a good straight posture, good posture is
important. If we lean to the right we may get some clarity but then
later anger will come, if we lean to the left we may experience
bliss but then desire will come, leaning to the front maybe sleepy
but also the idea that we have had some realisation and this will
turn to ignorance, leaning backwards at first brings a sort of
feeling of emptiness but then big pride will arise, so we have to be
careful, to be aware of this, so try to sit straight eh! With this
habit of leaning to one side or the other we may get some
experiences at first and think we have had some insight etc. and we
may want more of these experiences and then we will be looking for
them, wanting more, but they will never come because we are
grasping, not resting. So no hope, no fear. Are there any
questions?
Question: Will
the meditation be destroyed or can you use the anger as a part of
the practice?
GD: The remedy
for anger is compassion, although maybe if we get angry at ourselves
for not practising it's a bit positive! Maybe we can use it in this
way. It is said that one moment of anger will destroy lifetimes of
merit. That is why it is best to dedicate all the merit from our
practise as soon as we finish it, before we get angry and lose it.
The remedy for anger is compassion.
Of course all
the practices are about compassion, but the main aspect, the
embodiment of compassion is the Buddha Chenrezig. When we do this
practise we learn how to use this practice of compassion in our
daily life, to change the anger which is a big negative into a
positive, the compassion. So we do the sitting practice on our
cushion, then the post meditation where we try to carry this
awareness into our daily activities. Then in our daily life, when we
are confronted with anger either in ourselves or by someone else, it
is then that this practise comes into use, so that we don’t get
involved in the confrontation, in the movie. It can help us to see
the suffering of the other person and not be so involved in the
usual self-centred movie, maybe we can recognise, that if they are
angry, they really aren’t very happy, actually they are in a hell
realm.
It can happen,
if you offer something nice to an angry person they will push your
hand away and shout at you, they are not aware of what they are
being offered, they don’t care, they are in a big suffering, so the
object is not to multiply, not to add to their suffering but to have
compassion for them. Then we are putting our practise to good use in
our daily lives.
It is good to
do the practise of Chenrezig, who is the ultimate aspect of
compassion and compassion is a medicine for anger, which can come
from fear, a fear of ego becoming a lesser ego, of being a target,
it is not that we are bad people with such nastiness inside all the
way, it's more the ignorance, the attachment to ego, it’s the way we
have been educated isn’t it, the way we have been brought up so
don’t give yourself such a hard time.
Once someone
was trying to harm Akong Rinpoche, I asked him, "What can I do?"
Rinpoche replied, "You dedicate all the merit of your practice to
this person."
So it seems
that our meeting her today has come to an end. Anything that you way
have found useful then please take it with you and anything you
disagree with, then no problem, just leave it here. Thank you for
coming, thank you for your patience kindness and hospitality. Today
we started with the right motivation, then we talked about how to
tame our mind and how to try to avoid being the cause of more
suffering etc. Any merit that we have gained from contemplating
this, from our understanding and the practice we have done here this
afternoon, we dedicate all of this for the benefit of all sentient
beings, this means friends and enemies, with impartiality, so we
dedicate for the benefit of all sentient beings. So we will say a
short dedication prayer.
Sönam deji tam-che zig-pa nyi
tob-ne nye-pei dra nam pam che ne
tse ga na chi palab drupa ji
sipe cho-le dro va drol-var sho.
Due to this
good karma, may I achieve Omniscience,
Defeat the
harmful enemies within me,
And free
beings from the sea of existence
That is
churned by the waves of birth, ageing, sickness and
death.
Gelong
Dre-may
Buddhist
Meditation
Helsinki 18.4.2004,
oral translation Soili
Takkala.
(Edited)
So today we are
supposed to be discussing meditation. Maybe it’s a good to start off
by talking about why to do it, then maybe how, then the aim, or
result. Actually it is just about being a good, kind, sane human
being. The methods we will go through today are what I
was taught by my teachers, who are Buddhists from Tibet, but it is
not about trying to convert anyone to Buddhism or about sitting in
rainbow's or how to read other peoples mind's, how to fly etc. It’s
just about training our mind, so that's what we will talk about
today.
But as I am a
monk, then there are three things I was taught to consider, they
are: good in the beginning, good in the middle and good in the end,
so, we start this afternoons meeting with a good motivation, then we
will have something in the middle and at the end we will dedicate
all the merit we have accumulated.
So first two a
short motivation prayers:
Sem-chen tam-che de-wa dang
de-we gyu dang den-par gyur-chig
dugnal dang dugnal chi gyu dang dral-var
gjur-tsig.
Dugnal me-pei de-wa dam-pa dan min dral-var
gyur-chig
nje ring cha dan dang dral-wei tan-njom chen-po la ne par
gyur-chig.
May all beings
be happy and create the causes of happiness.
May they all be
free from suffering and creating the causes of
suffering.
May they find
that noble happiness which can never be tainted by
suffering.
May they attain
universal, impartial compassion, free of worldly bias towards
friends and enemies.
Chang-chub
sem ni
rin-po-che
ma che-pa
nam che jur chik
che-pa njam-pa
mepa
dang
gong ne gong-du
phel-var sho.
Precious
bodhicitta, may it arise in those, in whom it hasn't yet
arisen,
Wherever it has
arisen, may it not diminish but increase more and
more.
Having been in
a Buddhist centre in Brussels for a couple of years now and having
met many people who want to learn about meditation then I wonder
where these people get their ideas about meditation from, maybe it's
from comics or the new age influence I don’t know, but
sometimes when they first come, they sit in strange positions
and say things like: "I want to fly, I need to read people's
minds and see auras, how can I make my cup fly up onto the table."
Lots of strange ideas about meditation. That's not what I learned,
that’s not what it is for.
The meditation
that I was taught is about how to tame our mind. It’s
about common sense really, but these days we don't seem to use, to
have much common sense. Maybe in Finland then one will have to use
common sense because it's quite a harsh environment to live in,
cold, quite harsh, so you have to know how to look after yourself in
this sort of situation, you have to build warm houses, houses
that will keep the heat in etc., common sense isn’t
it!
So first, what
is meditation and why to do
it?
Well, in our
daily life we are presented with all sorts of different situations,
this modern world is quite crazy, lots of conflicts, pollution,
pressure at work, at home, on families, big demands on students. We
are told we have to do this and we have got to get that, demands and
stress, the media telling us what we must have and wear, how we
won’t be happy without this or that and if we don't travel here or
there then how can we be happy. So on top of our own confused
thoughts we have to cope with all the demands that are laid on us
from the outside, the daily material world.
Our buttons are
continually getting pushed in, we lose our temper and we wonder why.
When someone disagrees with us or does something we don’t like, we
become angry. We always blame the other person, but if we get angry
then we have the problem don’t we, it’s us who gets angry, the
problem is ours, isn't it! It's not the other person's problem, the
other person may have a problem, but if we get angry with them then
it’s us who has a problem.
Since childhood
we are taught to make our ego stronger, you know, we have to be the
best in school, we have to have the best looking girlfriend or
boyfriend, we have to be the cleverest etc., there are so many
demands put on us. Maybe we can see through it, that’s great, but
it’s difficult to be calm all the time amidst all this daily
activity and on top of all this we have the senses to cope with, we
see, hear, smell, taste, touch something and make a judgement,
either we like it and want more, or we don’t like it and don’t want
any more. If we like it and want it and someone else gets it we get
jealous or angry and if we get it we get proud because we got it, or
whatever. So we have all these situations to cope with as well.
Meditation is
about recognizing these processes as they occur, that's what it's
for, to look at our guck that is our usual confusion. If we want to
learn meditation then it’s useful to know why to meditate, what it
is for and then when we are learning how to do it and all this stuff
comes to the surface, when we start to see the mind habits, the
complexities, the patterns, the confusion, then maybe we can accept
and deal with it, having no illusions about the way things are, this
is what meditation is for. So it’s not about having amazing
experiences or flying or reading other peoples minds etc. It’s just
about taming our mind so that we will be able to live in a humane,
kind manner. If we don't know it and study meditation from books, we
may get angry when it's not working and give it up, some
people look calm outside, but inside it can be a fire like hell, we
have to work with what is inside us, then the outside will also work
as well, isn’t it !
What is the
cause of this turmoil, these problems, not just in us but other
beings? It’s the attachment to ‘I’, to this grasping of the
ego, that is the big problem, this attachment to I. We see
something "That's nice, I like it, I want it I want more. "But
it’s the 'I' that is grasping isn’t it, ...likewise "I don't like
it, I don't want it." Either way it is still the
‘I’ that wants or that doesn’t want isn’t it, it’s still this
attachment to ‘I’.
Some people
think they are great, such a big ego, some people think they are
useless, worthless, it’s also ego. It is a difficult thing to do, to
be humble, it's not really our fault, it’s because we are educated
to look after number one, it’s the way society functions, that’s the
way it is.
There is a word, bodhicitta, it sort of means to put
others before oneself, to think of others, to think what is good for
others, to put others before oneself.
Khentin Tai
Situpa, one of the masters in our lineage
said we have to be careful when talking about this subject to
Western people because the way we are brought up in the west
enforces the ‘I’, it makes our ego very solid, so we can end up
having big ego, big problem. With this thinking of I, then it can
become difficult to think of others, so to talk about doing that can
sometimes be too much of a shock, too strange a thing to
do.
When looking
for the cause of this problem we can make a start by taking a look
in our body, searching for it with an analytical meditation. Find
somewhere quiet, a quiet room, the seashore, the forest, somewhere
quiet, and start to investigate: "Where is this I... is it in the
nose, in the fingers, in the knee?" If we cut our leg and throw it
away, we still have an I and when we look at the body, then there is
the skin and blood, muscles, bones, the joints, marrow and shit and
piss, if we look deeper, we come to atoms and in between the atoms
there is a space, if there wasn't space, then nothing would ever
move, but everything moves and changes. First we were a tiny
seed, something from our mother and father, we grew up and
eventually, we will die. It's not a big deal, it happens every day.
We are born, we will die, voila!!! So if we look at the atoms and
then the space in between and if we rest there, then where is this
‘I’ that is causing us so much trouble?
The body is
made up of elements: earth, air, fire, water, and space. Of course
relatively we are here. When I say relatively, then it refers to the
fact that there are two truths. Ultimate truth refers to the fact
that ultimately we will never find ‘I’, there is nothing that is a
separate entity that will last forever but relatively we are here in
a human body but this body is impermanent and comes together due to
causes and conditions, so relatively we are here. We are whoever our
name happens to be now, but we could be called by a different name,
it’s only a name, we recognise ourselves by it when someone says it
and we recognize our face in a mirror, but no body which will stay
forever, nothing lasts forever, everything that is compounded is
subject to impermanence. It is a matter of causes and
conditions coming together that we have this body and if we look for
the mind then where is it, is it in our nose, ear, stomach, knee,
where is it, does it have a colour, is it blue, red, yellow, green,
is it white, is it square or round?
But something
is here isn’t it, a thing that knows! If we try now to think of a
big yellow banana, and now an apple, and now an orange.......... so
where did the banana go? And the apple and the orange? This mind has
the capacity to think of things and these things are in something.
The mind has the capacity to put thoughts in this space and also
there is something that is thinking, so there is something seen,
something seeing and something that they are in.
If we meet a
friend and they don't smile or acknowledge our hello, we may start
wondering what we have done, why aren’t they saying hello, why
aren’t they talking to us, what did we do? Maybe that person was
thinking about something else at that time or had a stomach ache,
but we worry what we have done, don’t they like us, we make up some
story in our mind.
We make up a
movie, then we act in this movie, we write the story and now we
project it out so that now we are the script writer the director and
the actor and when we go and ask the person what is the matter and
they answer: ”What are you talking about I have a stomach ache,”
then we have a supporting act, supporting our movie, this how it is
in our daily life, an endless succession of all these endless
movies. We produce movies and act in them endlessly. It
happens so fast that we don't notice, it is happening all the time.
On top of this we have the emotions, jealousy, anger, fear, greed
and pride and we take them to be real, elation, happiness,
depression, so a lot to contend with. In Tibet there is a term for
this thought pattern, it is ba-chak, it means, habitual
pattern.
One movie
pattern that seems to be very prevalent, especially in Europe is
guilt, it isn’t a very healthy aspect of our life, I think in fact,
maybe it's quite sick. We have been taught that we must feel guilty.
Even some people tell me they have been in a situation where they
have been the victim, then they have felt guilty for being there at
the time, guilty for being the victim, that if they hadn’t been
there then it wouldn’t have happened. Of course that is true, but to
feel guilty about being harmed doesn’t seem right. Khentin Tai
Situpa was questioned about this guilt thing, he said that he
understood the concept of guilt, but that he didn’t really
understand it. He said when he was a little boy and did something
wrong he was told off, told why it was wrong and so he didn’t do it
again, he said that he regretted it, he had a big regret for
having done something wrong or having harmed or hurt someone, and
then - finished!!! Next time it occurred, it wouldn’t happen, that's
it. There wasn’t this guilt, just the deed, regret and a decision
not to repeat it again, the feeling of sorry, the regret was there,
but this guilt thing, this continual whipping of ourselves, that it
seemed a bit sick. We are humans and we make mistakes, we aren’t
perfect, so we must learn through our mistakes; that’s one of the
ways we learn.
Back to this
ba-chak, the habitual pattern, usually we are thinking of
something in the past, which has gone, or of something in the
future, which hasn't happened yet. We direct our movies from
somewhere which happened in the past or ponder, if I do this, will
this or that happen; we are in a movie about what will happen in the
future. We can make plans, that's okay, of course but who knows what
will happen, so this just being here now is really difficult, even
we are here now then now is in the past, now it’s gone.
Meditation is
very simple, the pure nature of our mind is there all the time, but
we don’t know this, so then it becomes quite complicated because we
have all these senses to contend with and the past and the future
and the 'I' thing. Not easy. The mind has different layers, like an
onion. When we begin to practise meditation we start to see the
thoughts, to know the outer skin, the big, heavy thoughts, then the
more we relax and calm down, the more we practise, the deeper we get
onto these layers.
This mind,
which we are trying to find, is like a wild horse, we have to be
very gentle with it and we have to learn to be kind to ourselves as
well, because as westerners, usually, we demand to much from
ourselves, we are to hard on ourselves. If we can accept that we do
make mistakes and learn to laugh at ourselves, then maybe when other
people make mistakes, or cause us problems then maybe we can be kind
to them as well. This horse, this wild horse, first we have to find
it, then to get a little closer, then we can pat it, put a saddle on
it’s back and eventually we ride it and make it turn to right and
left, make it to go where we want it to go.
Question: You
said that the quilt is a habitual pattern and we were brought up
with it. It doesn't quite explain it to me. Why is the quilt so much
greater in the West than in the East?
GD: Sorry,
excuse me for saying this, sorry if it upsets you, it is just my
opinion. But through having talked with many people about these
problems that we have in daily life, about coping with the problems
of daily life, it seems that maybe some of this guilt comes from the
Church, or rather the way it has been presented by some members of
the church.
In Brussels
sometimes I am involved in inter-faith conferences and the majority
of people, including Christian priests agree on this point about
guilt. I also meet up with school children either at schools or at
the centre, the children are great, they understand when we talk
about this subject, they understand the meditation techniques and
what they are for and can accept this idea of emptiness and
compassion is a subject they eagerly want to know more about, but
sometimes it is the teachers who have a problem with digesting these
subjects, guilt, emptiness and compassion.
There was a
conference in Dublin that I was invited to attend. Ireland is a
country with a large catholic community, attending this conference
there were approximately 200 catholic missionaries from different
countries, from all over the world. It was a forum where people from
countries that had been 'Christianised' were being brought together
under one roof. The building had a large hall with seats and a vast
exhibition hall where the stands were erected. Different
religions were represented and they wanted a Buddhist monk, that’s
why I was there.
The event was
for a week and every day 6000 to 7000 school children, as well as
adults visited, so it was quite busy. On Sunday the archbishop of
Ecuador was giving Communion and he asked me to join him on the
stage. I had never been to a Communion so I didn't know what to
expect.
There were
maybe 2000 people in attending the service, many of them children
and they were all going to receive Communion. Earlier the newspapers
had come and asked me "What do you think about all these different
religions?" I answered that I thought that all have same goal, just
different ways of reaching there. Then they asked the archbishop the
same question and he answered the same thing, almost word for word,
but he also added that he thought that, "At this time the world
needs the Buddhists." I talked with some of the priests,
the missionaries and they said that they thought that maybe the
forum, with all different countries and religions represented was,
in a way the catholic church sort of saying an
apology.
This wasn’t my
idea, but the catholic priests themselves, they said that with all
the conversions and the way that the religion had been presented by
some of the church and the not accepting that maybe the people in
other lands also had some validity concerning their beliefs,
concerning how they lived, that there had been no integration with
those countries concerning these original beliefs, that maybe some
of the problems that were occurring now may have been prevented if
in hindsight things had been done a little differently. So in
a way, they said that maybe there was a feeling of guilt! But by
asking me to participate in the Communion and the comment about
Buddhism earlier the archbishop who was at that time one of the
candidates to be the next Pope really didn’t do his candidacy any
good at all. But the missionaries said that he won’t be chosen
because he is too radical. It’s a shame because he is very open,
very honest. He told me that already there had been two attempts on
his life in Ecuador, because he was supporting environmental
projects and was lobbying against the big companies who have no
concern for the people or the country or the
environment. A very humane and very brave
man.
So anyway,
today we will go through some exercises, methods of this practise
called Shinay, how to use these methods, to find the mind and to
train it. These practices in themselves are very simple, but they
are also very deep, the Buddha got enlightened by using them, so
maybe they are good enough for us as well, we can make a start
anyway.
Meditation is
not about religion in the sense of a separate creed, it is just
about becoming a good human being, learning how to be happy with
ourselves, it is very simple really. Sometimes when I am asked to
talk about meditation there can be people from all different
faith’s: Muslims, Jewish, Hindu, Christians, black, brown and
yellow, women, men, ministers of European Parliament, housewives,
thieves, prostitutes, all sorts of people come to learn
meditation.
This searching
for some inner peace, some inner contentment, lasting happiness is
not a special thing for special people, everyone is special, it is
there for everyone and it’s great to see these people of different
mixtures of so-called social status sitting together, having a tea,
talking about the practise, no social barriers, just human beings,
it’s great. So meditation is about being calm, gentle human beings.
Maybe when a religion started it is like that also, just that, but
then it may get into a sidetrack.
This
explanation on meditation is not about making you Buddhists, it's
not about doing special things or wearing different clothes, cutting
your hair short or using rosaries, it’s just about becoming a kind
human being, but that’s what you are anyway isn’t it. You are
fortunate in Finland to have Ani Sherab, she has done a long
retreat, but it's not about becoming monks or nuns either, it's just
about being a good happy human being, that’s all.
(Break, some of
the teachings missed due to a gap on the tape.)
Answer to a
question: The Dorje (vajra) is the compassionate aspect, the
activity (skilful means) and the bell represents the wisdom aspect,
the understanding of emptiness. These two, the dorje and bell
are two objects that make a one. It is said that when we experience
emptiness, not blankness, but the true nature of our mind, then that
experience cannot be separate from compassion, because at that time
we will know that other beings don’t know that experience, otherwise
they wouldn’t be acting as they do, being a cause of more suffering
for themselves and others. So there is this non-separateness
of this experience, that is briefly what the dorje and bell
represent.
It is this
coming to understand the true nature of our mind, the fruition of
the practice. We have it already, it’s always there, it was never
not there, but we coloured it over, we got involved with this
confusion, this ego, with the five poisons, greed, desire, anger,
jealousy, pride. All the going out and coming back
through our senses and then the way we are educated to be best etc.
didn’t help.
So it is
difficult not to want to achieve something, but it really is
necessary to let go of this grasping, this wanting to do something,
to achieve. The great saint, the most famous yogi of Tibet,
Milarepa said: "Relax, relax, then more, then more and
more."
"Have no hope,
no fear," because fear does come, fear comes from anger, ego is
threatened, because we are cutting our ego off and ego doesn't like
it, but even though it is a problem, it is something we are used to,
something we know. The more you cut it off, the more it tries
to strengthen itself, through anger, desire pride etc. It doesn't
want to let go and even though it causes us much unhappiness, even
we suffer a lot, we can't let it go. Because actually, when we let
it go, we are going somewhere we don't know, so it’s like flying
into space, there is nothing to hold onto, there is nothing, it's a
very strange and frightening experience. If we really let go, we
will see there is nothing to be afraid of, but this ego is so
sneaky, it doesn't want to let go.
So we have to
learn to relax when the fear comes up. We have to learn to be kind
to ourselves, not to be so judgmental, we have to learn to laugh at
ourselves, because if we can't laugh to ourselves then we do have a
problem, every situation becomes very heavy and we cannot be wrong
in anything. Maybe we go to toilet, lock the door, look in the
mirror and say: "You made a mistake." And we answer to ourselves:
"Yes, but I it was because of such and such a reason." We always
have to justify ourselves so that the ego isn’t punctured. The
ego doesn't like to be belittled, it’s
painful.
On one occasion
I was in a retreat situation with twenty six men and during the
session times it can be very still, very quiet when everybody is
meditating. It was so quiet, so quiet, you could hear if anyone
moved or sniffled or coughed. This day I was meditating on this
subject and had this overpowering urge to laugh, maybe it was this
fear, maybe it was just because the thought that came seemed so
funny. I started to laugh, just quietly at first, but I couldn’t
stop myself, my neighbour banged on the wall. "Be quiet!" A close
friend, an American, he is a terrific giggler, Bruce is his name, a
really beautiful human being. Afterwards he said he had heard me and
was trying not to laugh. He started to giggle, when I heard this, it
made it even more difficult to stop, then it spread until everybody
was laughing.
In retreat
everyone takes a turn at being the discipline master, and the person
who’s job it was that month was walking up and down the corridor,
yelling, "Shut up!" and banging people's doors, that made it
even worse because he was laughing as well. It went on for a long
time and every time it stopped then someone giggled and it started
off again, it was a real good one, you know? With tears, stomach
ache, a real good one. For few days the whole house was sort of a
giggly house, it was great!! Life is too short to waste on silly
things, I look at the younger people here, I'm sixty five, I know
what I'm talking about, it’s short, so don’t waste it. Don’t waste
your life on silly things. This “poor me,”... what poor me, if we
look at what is going on in the world today, what do we have to
complain about?
There is a
practice called the Four Foundations, it has been translated as ‘The
Four Ways of Changing the Mind’, personally I don’t go with that
translation because it can imply that something, someone, will take
over our mind, of course we suffer because of the way we see things,
so maybe we do need to change our mind, to see things a bit
differently, anyway we will call them the Four
Thoughts.
The first one
is called Precious Human Birth, this is where we look at all the
freedoms and assets that we have being a human. We are not a pig or
a flea, we could be, we have had lifetimes in the past, but in this
lifetime we happen to be humans, but even as humans we could be born
in a country with wars going on, or we could have aids, famine, even
not being allowed to follow what religion we like. We all have a
place to live, we can do what we want, wear what we want, we are not
blind or deaf or lame or mentally sick, we are really lucky. We
cannot appreciate how lucky we are, so very, very briefly this is
the First Thought, Precious Human Birth.
The second
thought is Impermanence. This is where we look at the impermanent
nature of everything, nothing stays same forever, nothing.
Anything that is compounded is subject to change, the moment that
was a moment ago, has gone, we get older all the time, people are
born and people die, the whole time I have been in Finland the sun
has shined and people got quite crazy. "Look at that flower, smell
this!" It's nice, but everything changes all the time, nothing stays
like it is forever. Yesterday you may have been sad about something,
now it's okay, in daily life if there are problems in work or at
home it will pass and if we really enjoy ourselves and would want it
to last it will pass and we are unhappy, it will pass.
The Buddha said
that among all the teachings impermanence is like the elephant's
footprint because of all the animals in the jungle the elephant has
the biggest footprint and like this impermanence is the most
important. If you are lucky you may meet Khenpo
Tsultrim Gyamtso, I think he will visit Finland either later this
year or next year, anyway he is one of the most learned Tibetan
scholars of our time, he is also one of the teachers of the
17th Karmapa and he is also a practitioner, a real yogi.
For many years he wandered around Tibet, meditating, practising in
cemeteries and living in caves, I was very fortunate to meet him and
to hear him teaching about this subject, the importance of the
understanding of impermanence. He said if we really understand
impermanence, (me-tak-pa in Tibetan) we will understand
emptiness, we will know emptiness.
So the first
two thoughts are precious human birth and impermanence. The third is
karma, this is a little bit difficult for us to understand because
we can’t see the actions from our past lives and so how can we be
sure that what is happening now is a result of what we did in the
past. So a little difficult this one, but all it really means is
cause and effect, the seed and what grows from the seed, if we put
cabbage seeds in the ground then we can’t expect to produce oranges.
This is what it is about. It is difficult to prove, but some people
work all their lives, seven days a week, no time off and never
getting anywhere, all the time in debt, then others, they just have
a simple idea, how to make one simple article and sell millions of
them all over the world and become a millionaire. So maybe that is
because in a previous lifetime they were generous and maybe the
other one was stingy or stole something and so they are reaping what
they sewed. Some people are healthy, some aren't, it is karma. Some
people seem to a have wrong idea about karma, if they see someone
falling down and breaking a leg or hurt they walk away thinking,
"It's his karma." Well maybe it is, but we can still be a kind human
and help in whatever way we can.
The fourth
thought is called the Sufferings of Samsara. Samsara is really the
involvement in the mind poisons we talked about earlier, anger,
greed, ignorance, desire, jealousy and pride. If we understand that,
then we don't need to go to somewhere else to be in nirvana. If we
want to know about samsara and how to get out of it, then maybe the
practise of Chenrezig will be good to practise, just to say the
mantra once will be of great benefit.
Chenrezig is
the Buddha of compassion, of course all the Buddhas are compassion
but Chenrezig is like a symbol maybe, of all this compassion, the
total compassion, the ultimate aspect of compassion. The mantra of
Chenrezig is called the six-syllable mantra. Each syllable of the
mantra relates to one of the six realms, the gods, jealous gods,
humans, animals, pretas (hungry ghosts) and the hell beings. How do
we free ourselves from these sufferings, these mental afflictions?
It’s not just Buddhists that suffer, all beings suffer, people say
that all Buddhists talk about is suffering, well maybe! But
it’s more how to be free of it, the way out of it.
The term Dharma
has many meanings, but here it means the path, the way to end the
suffering. For one year I lived in Kathmandu, Nepal. Kathmandu
is a very beautiful city situated in the Himalayas, amazing scenery,
but still there is much suffering. Nepalese people suffer, Tibetans
suffer, rich people, poor people, everybody suffers. Everybody can
have a problem, everybody wants to be happy, but not everyone knows
how to be happy. Are there any questions?
Q: The Om mani
peme hung mantra helps beings who are suffering in six realms. Are
the plants included in any of the realms?
GD: Plants? Do
you want to put the nice smelling flowers in the hell realms?
Q:
Yes.
GD: Nice, but
they would most probably burn up or freeze in the hell
realms.
Translator: Do
you want to know if plants are suffering beings? Maybe this is the
question. Can we free plants from suffering?
GD: Maybe. …I
was born and grew up in London, some of my friends there were
Rastafarians so I knew a little about herbs… but not much about
plants out in the nature. Maybe Finnish people are closer to the
nature. In Scotland, there is a place where people used to talk to
plants, it is called Findhorn.
Earlier at
Samye Ling we had started a garden, we had planted a large patch of
cabbage which was to help us get through the winter and one time I
was left by myself to tend this garden. I really hadn’t much
experience with gardening. One day I saw some white butterflies and
thought nice, butterflies, then someone told me that they were
cabbage butterflies and that the butterflies have eggs and the eggs
turn into caterpillars and the caterpillars are going to eat all the
cabbages.
I started to
get worried because the cabbages were to help to sustain the kitchen
through the winter months. Early next morning I got and went
through the entire patch of cabbages looking for caterpillars, it
took all morning. I thought I can't do this every day, there was a
lot of other garden work to do. There were some people around who
smoked cigarettes, so I collected the butts because someone told me
you could make a spray from them, but once I had made the concoction
it occurred to me that it would kill all the caterpillars so that
was no good !!!
Very early, I
mean very early, so no one would see me, I went to the garden. I
stood in the middle of the cabbage patch and talked to the garden,
the animals, the butterflies, whoever would listen and made a plea:
"Listen, I don't want to kill the caterpillars and I understand that
you have to eat, so you have one end of the garden and leave the
rest to us, okay, because Samye Ling needs the cabbages to help us
over the winter period." Suddenly the cabbages started to shake,
literally shake, it was a wee bit disconcerting! I walked out of the
patch and went to go to breakfast, then it felt as if something,
someone, pulled me, so I just followed and when it stopped pulling I
looked down and there was a cabbage full of caterpillars. I took it
and put into compost. Maybe in all we lost eight
cabbages.
Now every year
in August at Samye Ling we have an open day, so people come all over
from Glasgow, Edinburgh and the surrounding towns to visit Samye
Ling. We serve tea and biscuits and the visitors can look around,
lots of farmers come. It so happened that it wasn’t only Samye Ling
that had caterpillar problems that year, in Southern Scotland there
was a plague of cabbage butterflies and nearly everybody lost their
crops of cabbages, including the farmers. So when they came to the
garden in Samye Ling and asked "How come you can have cabbages?"
what could I tell them? So in answer to your question I don’t know,
but I'm sure there is some awareness, but I don't know what it is,
how it happened… maybe plants do have means to communicate, maybe it
is a collective nature awareness, maybe local deities, garden
spirits, I don’t really know, but it was a beautiful experience, so
who knows, maybe plants can be liberated.
Question: In
this everyday reality is there something which is not a
projection?
GD: For you or
for another person? Of course, if I say something to you and you
make a judgement, it's a projection.
Q: But if I try
to keep in the listening and hearing, not making any
judgement?
GD:
Maybe if we can rest in our true nature, this emptiness, awareness,
but that is difficult to do. What we call projection is what
goes on all the time isn’t it. We have opinions. You can disagree
with me. I can disagree with you. I can say I don't like that
building even though I know you like it, but I am projecting an
opinion. If I say I know you like that building because you are
Finnish, there is a judgement projection about you. It’s a
projection. What normally happens is that we give our opinion and
people project their judgement onto us. Then one has to be aware and
mindful because it creates fighting. The one who is accused wants to
protect themselves and it escalates. So in a way all this dualism,
this I, is a projection, isn’t it. I am listening to you is a
duality, so I am projecting.
Q: Earlier when
I talked to Gelong Dre-may at Tampere, he said that when you are
resting in the nature of your mind you are looking at your own soul.
Perhaps the previous question was about dualism, projection in a way
what is real, as everything that comes to us through our senses is a
projection in a way of being an illusion. Is there something that
isn't a projection?
GD: When we
rest in our pure, our true nature, Dharmakaya. I seem to remember
that I said that I didn’t know what was meant by the term “soul“,
but that maybe this pure mind was the same. When we are resting in
awareness, not even being aware of the awareness, just being, then
there are no projections, because there is no
duality.
When the usual
habitual patterns start to take over, when we can't stop the
thinking but are involved with the continuous thought train, then
there is something and someone so we are in dualism. Whilst sleeping
we have dreams, we think the dreams are real, but it is just a movie
in our mind, but at that time we don't have a body to relate to, we
are in our mind. If we can be aware, if we realise that the dream is
just a dream, we can change it to be whatever dream we want. So it’s
the same in our daily life. In the same way when we meditate and if
we realise, if we are aware that the thoughts are just thoughts and
that those thoughts are of the same essence as the pure mind, the
true nature of our mind, that this essence is the pure Buddha nature
there is no dualism, then maybe this is the same as the term ‘soul’.
I don't know if this answers your question, or whether or not this
is the projection you were referring to.
When we
understand the essence of our thoughts then the confusion is not
there, then we are not confused anymore. But there are different
sorts of confusion, there is a confusion when someone is really very
mentally confused and another where we know and are confused, and
confused as to how to get out of it and how to do it, but that is a
good confusion because maybe out of that confusion will come some
understanding, some wisdom. Most people here seem to be confused in
the second way and I think that is healthy confusion. It is like
trying to find our way out of a jungle, first we don't see anything
but when we get out we will see clearly.
There was a
question about dying. Well it happens to all of us but in the
Western world it isn’t a subject that is very popular and most
people don’t want to even talk about it, at least until death is
near. It's a taboo subject, people don't want to get involved with
it, maybe it's the fear of not knowing, maybe everyone in the
western hemisphere should go to Asia, to India, where death is
definitely not a hidden subject. I don't mean it's great, having
dead bodies lying all around, but it makes us appreciate what we
have, it is impermanence right in your face, no escape. Yes, maybe
it should be compulsory for everyone on the west to visit India,
then we would stop complaining about what we don’t have. Usually the
culture shock hits people when they come back to Europe and see
through the facade of what we are told is absolutely necessary for
life. It’s when we come back to this worldly life, this
materialistic orientated society and we see how unnecessary all
these supposedly necessary things are, so a different reality!
I was fortunate
to have had the opportunity to listen to some teachings on death and
Bardo, one of them was by Mingyur Rinpoche. Bardo is a Tibetan word,
it translates as 'in between', so, in between when we die, when we
are born etc. In between waking up and going to sleep etc. As a
summary of the Bardo teachings Mingyur Rinpoche said that the best
way to prepare for death is to develop good shinay meditation. Then
if we have peaceful mind and if we are fortunate to die in a way
where we can watch the elements dissolving, to watch this death
process, then we know we are dying and we will not have so much
fear. On dying Tai Situpa said: “It happens only once in a lifetime,
so better not miss it! (laughter). So if we can watch the elements
dissolving: fire, earth, air, water, maybe it’s a bit like going to
a journey, we know what’s happening. For many people it is like
going to an unknown land and they are frightened not knowing where
they will go.
If you want to
know more there are books. Thrangu Rinpoche has written one
explaining the stages of death, the process of dying and the various
stages of the Bardo. [Journey of the Mind]
It is sure that
we will all die, it’s no big deal, it happens to everyone, so best
to have good shinay. How do we shinay? We need two things for
meditation, a body and a mind. As Westerners we were brought up to
sit on chairs, not to sit cross-legged so don't worry if you can't
sit with your legs crossed, it's not a big deal. If you can, good,
but maybe sit on a cushion or two or three! The main thing is to
have a straight back. The head is placed in a way as if someone was
gently pulling you from your hair upwards, and it is slightly bent
forwards at the neck, this gives a straightening to the spine and
the eyes are looking at the floor about one, one and a half meter in
front, the eyes are half closed, gently resting. Some people like to
have the eyes closed, well maybe it’s okay to begin with but it is
easier to get involved with the thought pattern, with the movies and
it is definitely much easier to nod off, to fall
asleep.
The hands, they
can be placed, can be held in two ways. The first is to put the left
hand in your lap and the right hand on top of the left, the hands
are a little bit below the navel, but close to the body, not held
away from the body as this can hunch the shoulders. The thumbs are
touching each other, slightly raised up from the palms of the hands
forming a sort of inverted triangle.
The shoulders
are pulled back a little bit and a down with the elbows close to the
body, not too tightly, just gently, but not sticking out. A little
tip, if it is a cold day then press your elbows towards your body,
it will help to keep you warm, I learned this whilst in retreat from
some Tibetan friends because every morning we had to do prayers for
30 minutes in the large shrine-room and in the winter it can be very
cold in Scotland. The second position is to put your
hands on your knees, palms down. The hands can be either open palms,
face down or gently closed, face down, it is good to keep the arms a
little straight, so we don't bend the elbows, this straight armed
position can help, if you are feeling a little tired as it keeps the
shoulders in a good place.
The position
may be a little awkward to begin with but it doesn’t take too long
to get used to it. We are trying to find the mind. If one can just
rest and look at it and see all the thoughts there and let them go,
resting in that space, in that awareness, that is great, but this is
difficult to do when we start. For most of us it is better to start
by just becoming aware of our breath. There are different exercises
on how to concentrate on the breath, so we will try to get through
some of them today. The reason for giving more than one exercise is
that westerners get bored easily and maybe one of them will suit
more than the others.
Most people
breathe through the nose but some people have a problem and have to
breathe through their mouth, it’s okay, whichever suits, the mouth
is a little bit open, don't press the lips together, just let the
mouth rest loosely, naturally, then we just become aware of the
breath going in and out of the nose at the nostrils, or the mouth of
course, just focus the mind there.
If you are a
beginner and you decide to sit, to meditate for fifteen minutes,
then you can have shorter sessions during this time concentrating on
the breath, let's say thirty seconds and lengthening it, one minute,
two, five, ten etc. and then relax, since it can be tiring to hold
the wild horse in one place. The mind can get easily tired and
bored, so better to have lots of short spells of being aware than
longer periods just involved in some movie. So to keep the
awareness, but not too tight and not too loose, it’s like the
strings of a guitar, not too loose and not too tight and like with
any new thing start slowly, gently, no rush, nothing to achieve,
just relax and watch the movement of the breath, just be aware of it
going in and out of the nostrils, or mouth.
[Meditation.]
The next
practice is just an extension of the previous exercise, but this
time one thinks that when we breath in, it goes to the level of the
heart and when breathing out, it goes to a point, traditionally it
is said, four finger widths in front of our nose, so a cycle. In to
the heart and out to four finger widths in front of our nose (don’t
get too fanatic about the four fingers okay, it is just an
approximation). This method is called riding on breath. If you loose
your concentration and get caught up on a thought pattern, some
movie, well it will happen, from time to time, it’s okay. When you
notice that you have been away on a vacation, then just come back to
watching breath again. We start to see how easy it is to get caught
up with this mind meandering, no problem, just come back to the
breathing exercise, to the following of the breath.
[Meditation.]
For the next
exercise we use the same cycle as before, but this time we will
count the in breath and out breath as one, the next cycle, two and
so on. So the same cycle, but counting each of these cycles, the in
and out as one, two etc. To start it’s maybe good to do sevens,
lot’s of sevens, but if you get to three, four whatever and you
realise that you are somewhere else, on a vacation in the mind and
can’t remember what number you were at, was it three, four, five,
then you go back to one.
This method may
help to see the thoughts more clearly because we are actively using
our mind, so when we lose the count we know we lost it. There may be
thoughts that we see, but that’s okay, as long as we don't lose the
count, it’s okay, we can’t stop the thoughts, that’s not the object
of the meditation practise, we can’t stop them anyway, we are just
learning how not to get caught up in them, so if you lose the count
it’s okay, no problem, so we will try this exercise.
[Meditation.]
For the next
exercise it is the same cycle as before but this time we don’t
count. We are going to use colours, some people like to use
colours, so when breathing in we think that the colour is white,
when it is in, there is a short natural holding of the breath,
nothing extra, at this time the white turns to the colour red, when
being exhaled, when it is going out the red turns to the colour
blue. Has everybody got that? Okay, when we breathe in the colour is
white, when we hold then the colour is red and when we breathe out
the colour is blue. [Meditation.]
You should give
each of these methods a fair trial, you may like them all, or prefer
one. But what can happen is, that one day the mind may be peaceful,
and then we can have the idea the method we have used today is
really suitable, then next day the mind has lot’s of activity and we
think that this method is no good. But it is just the
different activities of the mind, one day busy next day quiet. Mind
has these activities, it can differ from day to day, so may be wiser
not to jump to conclusions too hastily and give each method a fair
trial. Then some days we may be able to count to one hundred
and other days we may not get past six. And we might think that the
six or whatever counting day was useless, but every day, every time
we practise is good, every session is good. If we are sitting and
thinking, how well this meditation is going, thinking that this is a
really good meditation then we aren’t meditating are we, we are
thinking.
Now we sit for
twenty minutes and to begin with maybe we can meditate on the
subject of precious human birth to start with, how lucky we
are to have this precious human birth and all the freedoms that go
with it. Then to think about impermanence, do you remember the Four
Ordinary Foundations? Okay, good... so first precious human birth,
then impermanence, then whichever shinay exercise you felt
comfortable with. [Meditation.]
After
practising for some time it can happen that, instead of experiencing
the thoughts inside our head where we are the producer, actor,
etc., we can start to be aware of our thoughts in a different
perspective, maybe we see the movie as sort of outside, or
apart, separate, it may be like we can see the movie, see our
thought patterns.
It is the same
movies, but when we are practising we are distancing, becoming less
involved with this activity. When this happens, there may be a
notion of some stillness, some peace, but then it can happen that a
flow of thoughts starts, they can start to become faster and faster
and we can’t stop them. Maybe we can think that we are going crazy
or maybe that we are crazy, so maybe one should know this otherwise
we may think that this meditation is not working, it is making me
think even more, maybe I should give this meditation
up.
But it is
working, the reason for seeing these thoughts is that we are not so
involved in the usual chaotic movies that we usually are caught up
with. For the first time we are seeing the chaotic patterns, the
confusion that we usually have going on in our mind but have never
seen before, never been aware of before, that this chaos we are
seeing is what we are usually involved in, no wonder we get tired
eh!!!
My teachers
told explained that this experience is like a waterfall which cannot
be stopped, but, after some time eventually the waterfall reaches
the extent of it’s down flow, it reaches the earth and becomes a
river and the river flows into a big beautiful calm lake. Then maybe
the wind blows and waves appear on the lake's surface, but this time
we don't get involved with the waves, we just watch them. Another
wave comes, then we think, maybe, if you like bananas, "A banana. I
would like a banana. I'm quite hungry." Then we are walking to the
kitchen to get one, so now we have become an actor in our movie, we
got caught. While you are eating the banana, if you remember: "Oh, I
was supposed to be watching my breath," (or whatever practice it
was) that's okay, just come back where you were and start doing your
practice again.
So this
waterfall process is, when we are seeing the pattern but not having
the usual involvement with it, seeing it is weakening the usual
habitual activity, we are not making the movies longer, not making
the process stronger, we are not getting involved, we are letting
the thoughts go so the process loses it’s strength, it starts to get
weaker, the waterfall becomes the river, the thoughts are getting
weaker. But during this process then we really need to have
patience, really! Just to sit and let this waterfall run is
difficult, nothing else to do but sit... patience my
friends!
Also we can
possibly have some physical reactions. In our daily life when we get
involved in, well, sometimes unpleasant situations, even just with
the just daily tribulations we can get tense and toxins accumulate
in our body and on top of that, all that is going on in this world,
all that happens, bad news etc. all this affects us. When we are
sitting and are not so involved with these chaotic thought patterns,
relaxed in meditation, our mind becomes calmer, more peaceful and
the body also begins to let go. Maybe the shoulders start to lose
this tightness, the muscles relax.
I don’t really
like to talk about the chakras, people get easily enthusiastic about
their chakras opening and so on, but anyway, according to the
eastern medical traditions and the Tibetan meditation systems we
have three main channels in our body and at different places on
these channels and at different places in our body there are chakras
and the chakras have branches called nadis. From when we are quite
young, maybe three or four years old, the nadis in the extremities
start to naturally die off, from fingers and toes. But because of
pollution, smoking, anger etc., they can die off, deteriorate, and
close up faster. Then when we start to relax, the blockages start to
clear, the toxins start to move, the body relaxes and so the more we
relax the better it is, when this happens, not everybody, but some
people may have a reaction to this un-blocking. Their body may start
to have little twitches or jump a little or shake, it’s okay, don’t
worry, it’s just the body relaxing, maybe in a way rejuvenating and
the energy is starting to flow, the toxins starting to move, mind is
learning to relax, so the body follows, that’s all it is, it’s no
big deal, so don’t worry.
A friend of
mine who was for many years in Kathmandu, Nepal ,was fortunate
to study with a great Tibetan Lama, Tulku Urgyen, and he
practised meditation with for many years, he experienced this body
shaking on and off for ten, twelve years, but, he had been a really
heavy long time smoker.
So don’t worry
too much too much, just be gentle with yourself, don’t have too many
fears or expectations, don’t expect too much, be happy, be kind to
others and yourself. The real test of meditation is when we carry it
into our daily lives, it’s not about being a big yogi, sitting on
our cushion, then loosing it when we get up and move into daily life
when we are confronted with a difficult situation. So, kind to
others, kind to ourselves.
The sign of a
good practitioner is not when someone tells how they have had this
and that initiation, have done many years of meditation, etc. The
sign of a good practitioner is when they become more humble, more
honest, more kind, more generous, more happy, more compassionate,
then it is working.
So thank you.
Anything today that you may have found of use then please take it
with you, anything that you find not so useful or disagree with,
then just leave it here, no problem. Now we have come to the end of
this talk, sorry if it was boring, it was a long time for you to
have to sit and listen and for me it was a long time to talk, but
now it is time to dedicate all the merit we may have accumulated for
the benefit of all sentient beings.
Sönam deji tam-che zig-pa nyi
tob-ne nye-pei dra nam pam che ne
tse ga na chi palab drupa ji
sipe cho-le dro va drol-var sho.
Due to this
good karma, may I achieve Omniscience,
Defeat the
harmful enemies within me,
And free
beings from the sea of existence
That is
churned by the waves of birth, ageing, sickness and
death. |